Man, life has been hard lately.  Everything has gotten so intense. In the main areas of my life that matter most to me: Love, Writing, Money.

In that order. Those are the Big 3 for me, and everything else in my life is a sub-genre.

Intense is not necessarily a bad thing. Intense is simply that: Intense.

I can’t go into the details of any of this right now. It is sufficient to say that my life astounds me and that I am so blessed, but all these many blessings bring unique challenges along with them that immediately give me a headache.

And along with the headache — I just wanna sleep. But how will any of the writing get written if I sleep? And if I’m always sleeping, how will I do yoga, which is pretty much the only thing that calms me down ?

I try hard to choose other routes besides the insanity route but most times I am not very successful. Or, to put a positive spin on it: I’m exceedingly successful at finding the insanity route in almost any intense circumstance that comes my way.

Yesterday was  a small day from hell for me. But it is over now. So on we go.  I am trying to ignore the headache that is merely the fallout from yesterday’s day from hell.  (And the day from hell was my fault, because there was the option to just ignore something, or to go down the insanity route. Guess which one I chose, for about 26 straight hours?)

Okey-dokey!

The title of this post refers to yet another really cool song I found out about today on the Australian guy’s blog (AThousandMistakes). Several weeks ago, he turned me onto a Mark Kozelek song –an acoustic version of I Love Portugal — that I immediately fell in love with, had to purchase the entire album, and then had to listen to over & over.

Today, it was another song I’d never heard before which blew me away, Needles Disney. It is from a collaboration album of British band Jesu and American band Sun Kil Moon (Mark Kozelek), called 30 Seconds to the Decline of Planet Earth from 2017.

It’s beautiful. I love it.  I share it with you now!

Have a splendid Saturday, wherever you are in the world, gang. Thanks for visiting. I love you! See ya!

I was in Seattle and you were there
Said you were in a methadone clinic
You came to my show and you talked the whole way through it
About how you couldn’t sleep and fuck
You kept me up, you asked me “please please Mark
Could you give me thirty bucks?”
So you could go out and score
And I gave it to you so I could get some sleep
And you ran off into the streets so fast like a little crack whore
Came back I told you I was playin’ in a couple of days in Orlando
You bounced up and down in the bed like a little yo-yo
“Please Mark, I’ve always wanted to go to Disney World”
I said sure, next morning we went to the airport
You saw me play my show down at the Sapphire
And we met a fan there who of all things played a Disney character
He was nice enough to arrange free passes and your smile was so bright
Some people we met at the venue took us

To Disney World
We went to Splash Mountain
I looked at the photo of us on the ride
We both looked so happy and carefree and oh
Later that day we were walkin’ and you dropped your purse
And you squatted down in your leopard-skin skirt
To pick up all your hypodermic needles, I helped you with it
Everyone looked at us like we were both pure evil
And on the way back we heard 10cc’s “I’m Not in Love”
And you got real close to me and at the same time we both said “I love this song”
And you fell asleep on my shoulder as we rode along in the backseat
Content and peaceful as a sleeping fawn
And the girl who was drivin’ was looking at me in the rearview
Like “What’s up, why the hell did you bring that crazy girl with you?”
I looked at her like “Mind your own goddamn business, fuck you, junkies are allowed to enjoy Disney World too”

Oh Disney World
A place for moms and dads and little boys and little girls
A place for everyone to have fun as far as I’m concerned
Some day I gotta go back to Orlando
And make some time for Disney World

Oh I never dreamed that you’d ever ever ever ever even turn thirty
You dated an illegal and you had his baby
He started robbin’ stores and he went to prison down in Mexico City
And all these years later you’re livin’ not far away
And I’m almost forty now and on the same day you’re gonna be forty too
You know something? I still have a lot of love for you
I still have a lot of love for you
I still have a lot of love for you
I still have a lot of love for you
I still have so much love for you
I still have a lot of love for you
I have so much love for you
I have so much love for you
I still have so much love for you

You still have a few drinks and you still smoke a little weed
But you’re off the junk and you work for an outreach program
Helping kids on the street
And though we only see each other maybe once or twice a year
When I see you your smile always manages to fill my heart with cheer
When I see you I never dare bring up that young girl
Who dropped her needles all over the pavement at Disney World

Oh Disney World [x12]

c- 2016 Jesu/Sun Kil Moon