Taking A Breather

Okay, gang.

If you follow Q, then you know well the drop: “Israel is saved for last.” So I guess we will see if the end of this mess is finally in sight.

Meanwhile, I’m exhausted by everything, fed up with everything in my life, full of way too much negative energy that is going nowhere fast.

For instance, my thoughts early this morning: I don’t want to go to Toronto. I don’t want to deal with this show. I’ll just pay them back their money for the plane ticket and just be done with it…

(After 9 years of my life…)

And that is just a drop in the bucket of the types of thoughts I’m dealing with here.

A total onslaught.

A whole entire planet’s worth of negativity.

I’m going down to see my dad again tomorrow, which is the only high point in my life right now. And I’m going to take a break from the blog, among other things. I have no idea for how long.

Loyal readers know that I have been a long-time reader of tarot cards — like, for about 45 years.

Anyway, this card came up for me regarding all this and I’m going to heed it before I do many things I’m going to regret:

“[…] After the time of chaos, anger and pain depicted in the Three of Swords, the Four of Swords can signal that it is time to retreat. The Four of Swords is a moment of rest. Whether this is from a choice to withdraw, or whether it is from pure exhaustion, it is not clear. We are still tender from the wounds that were inflicted, and the battle weapons still hang above us as a grim reminder of what was lost. In order to continue and re-emerge in your daily life, you must take the time now to take a breather. There is always the faint fear that something more is bound to happen again and it is advisable that you take all chances to rest.

[…] The Four of Swords indicates it is time to gather new strength and prepare to face a new challenge. You have faced crisis after crisis, and it is wearing you out. You can face a new challenge only after getting away from everything and embracing a new atmosphere. […]”