Fog of War 2023

I am absolutely in a full-on depression here, gang. Too much going on in all areas of my life, and of course, in the world.

This was posted (Q-related) to Phil’s chat just after midnight, and it was very helpful:

“I *REALLY* want & need you ALL to understand something:💥
RIGHT NOW, we need to be the MOST ASTUTE to what is happening all around us.

THIS is the “FOG OF WAR”.
It is CONFUSING, MADDENING, INFURIATING, & SCARY AF.
HOWEVER: WE ARE ALL TOGETHER. WE HAVE WHAT WE NEED RIGHT IN FRONT OF US: EACH OTHER.

DO NOT listen to the NOISE.
PAY ATTENTION re: PROPAGANDA: LISTEN TO THE LIES FOR WHAT THEY ARE!
THERE IS NO “SIDE” here, Folks. IT’S THE SAME BEAST.

The fight for the DNA is real. WE PASSED THAT ONE.

Now it’s a fight for our MINDS. We have to STICK TOGETHER on this.
DO NOT BE SWAYED. WE KNOW THIS HAS ALREADY OCCURED.
WE KNOW THAT IT MUST PLAY OUT. SO, FOCUS ON OTHER THINGS:
FOCUS ON GOD. FOCUS ON YOUR FAMILY. FOCUS ON POSITIVITY & LIGHT.

DO NOT LET YOUR MINDS BE WROUGHT w/ FEAR & CONFUSION.
THAT’S WHAT THEY WANT – It’s how they BEAT YOU.

The ULTIMATE FIGHT is for our SOULS.
If they can beat your MIND? It’s easy to take over the rest of ya.
🔥DON’T LET THEM.🔥“

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Obviously, everything everywhere seems to be just barreling out of control into utter chaos — although we were always warned that the end was going to “look like WW3” and it certainly does.

Anyway.

Too many lies all over the place. I don’t want to say that I give up, because I don’t give up. But the only thing I can do and still remain sane is to step back from all of it and from everybody, for now.

And I am also going to try like hell to just go on auto-pilot the whole time I’m in Toronto, primarily because of the unavoidable politics surrounding “The Guide to Being Fabulous.”

The only thing I know for certain right now is that MK Ultra was unbelievably successful. On all of us, even those of us who are old enough to have been taught critical thinking along side the decades of cultural mind control.

And for a whole lot of people, its grip remains unbelievably tenacious. It is so depressing.

Meanwhile.

After 3 and 1/2 years of being segregated from my writing career, and in that time span, essentially losing all of my readers, I am having a stressful/strenuous(?) time, trying to regain that voice in my head that was present when I began all these half-finished projects, over 3 years ago.

When I read over them now, I realize that there is so much about my own life as a writer, that I am forgetting. And I don’t want to lose that. I don’t want to lose my grasp on that voice I always had in my head as a writer. I am really struggling with it.

And part of it is because this blog used to be all about my writing and my readers, and since 2020, it was turned over to all the Q stuff and the fight to save the children and the US Constitution.

Until this war is over, it doesn’t seem likely that I will get my blog back (psychologically), so I decided to start a free substack. It will be ready early next week. That will be the place where I post my works-in-progress, like I used to do here.

It will be at https://marilynjayelewis.substack.com but there is nothing there yet.

And it will be for adults only, since my writing is intended for adults.

So I will keep you posted on the progress of that.

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Okay.

Happy Heavenly Birthday, Tom Petty. I love you. RIP.

(Below is one of my favorite songs of his — over the years, I’ve played it over and over and over, during those times when I am barely making it and trying to make sense of everything and to just keep going. “Only A Broken Heart” — he wrote it for his wildly successful Wildflower solo album, the album he made in 1994, when he was trying to come to terms with wanting a divorce from Jane.)