Misleading Photo!!

While I am indeed typing, I am not actually smiling.

Although I have been trying to smile all morning…

Jesus, gang. It’s like I get about 4 minutes of respite from the world, and then it plunges back into stress.

A case in point — I discovered yesterday evening that the shift I am filling in for tonight was not described to me in the best possible way. For instance, I think the agency purposely misled me about where the client actually lives because they know I do not like driving long distances and they desperately needed someone to fill the shift.

Had they said he lives “near Utica” I would have absolutely 100% without hesitation said, “No.” Because it’s too far away.

But instead, they said “northern Newark area”, which is an “area” of the town of Newark that I’ve been to many times — full of houses, stores, churches, streetlights. So, no problem.

But last evening, I discovered the client is 40 miles away from me, each way. And way, way, WAY out in the country. Which means, driving home in the absolute pitch darkness, on unfamiliar backroads full of wandering animals for 40 miles.

And I won’t pull up to my house until about 10PM tonight.

Anyway. Of course, my mind immediately goes to the humanity of the situation, or I wouldn’t even have this kind of caregiver job in the first place. The client needs around-the-clock help. He’s in his 90s. He lives alone. He needs companionship and he doesn’t want to die in a hospital, he wants to stay out in the country, at home. And I don’t blame him.

This is one of my favorite views out here — it’s from the terrace of the restaurant at the local golf course, 10 minutes from my house. The view goes on forever. What’s not to love about living in the country, right?

So I understand the whole picture. But I had an emotionally intense week, client-wise. Including yesterday. With my 94-year-old Japanese client. Whom I adore. But it can get very emotional for me — how much my clients appreciate me at this stage of their lives. It matters so much to them — the companionship and the conversation.

And afterwards, I went out to lunch at the Peony Bistro with my girlfriend — and, frankly, I was so worn out that I had to make an effort to have “a nice time”. I was sort of drained.

And when we got our fortune cookies at the end of our meal, this was mine!!!! I nearly collapsed with exhaustion right there in the booth.

Oh, and now it’s snowing….

All right, gang.

Even though I’m trying to stay away from posting news now on the blog, check this out if you missed it the other day.

It’s originally from MJ Truth, and below is the video it came from — and the part about Vietnam, and the fake Gulf of Tonkin attack, lends more and more credence to the MK Ultra garbage that apparently happened to Jim Morrison. (His dad was the Commander of that ship during that “attack” that launched the entire Vietnam War.)

BTW – these “conspiracy theories” have been declassified. Available to the public. (4 mins)

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And a great new Bible series started by Ross K. Nichols.

Discovering the Decalogue Dilemma (1hr 13 mins):