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A Quick Post Before I’m Outta Here!

Okay, Phil announced yesterday that he will go live tomorrow night, Friday, Oct.27, qt 7PM eastern time. Check tomorrow to confirm.

My sister dropped off my mom around 7 last evening. I had not seen either of them since before the scamdemic. Almost 4 years. But there we all were, chatting away, catching up, just like the old days.

Weird, how suddenly everything feels back to normal, although we’re all noticeably older…

Plus, I haven’t flown anywhere in 4 years, either. It’s so weird how now you do all that check-in stuff on your phone! Check in, get your seat number, give them all your passport info, check your baggage, get your boarding pass — all of it, on your phone. And my e-boarding pass even had my TSA Pre-check on it.

It’s just weird.

Of course, I immediately closed the wrong window and lost the whole thing….(they re-sent it).

Anyway. Off I go. I am finally feeling really excited, gang. Partly because Wayne will already be there when I get there and he’ll be waiting outside of the high rise for my (excruciatingly expensive) Uber to arrive, with me inside it, with my stupidly heavy suitcase, and wearing my awesome David Bowie tee shirt that Wayne had made for me on one of my birthdays a few years ago….

This is where he and I are staying in Toronto:

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Okay.

Nick Cave sent out a Red Hand File yesterday that was very beautiful. And empowering. Advising a reader about how best to deal with a recent drug overdose. He wrote, in part:

“[…] if it is  related to drug dependency then in my experience people don’t usually overdose just once – they tend to overdose a couple of times, and then all too often die.[…]”

And he went into detail about what happens after you get clean. In part:

“[… If you persevere, in time you will have an entirely different problem – not that life is meaningless, but rather that life has almost too much meaning.[…]”

I so totally agree with that.

When I was in my early teens, I had a very serious drug problem. It wasn’t heroin, though. But I OD’d more times than I can even remember. And then, eventually, almost died. Twice.

Now, I can’t even imagine living in that much despair. Even when I’m battling depression, it is never as bad as it was in those early days of my life. I can’t imagine having missed out on all the incredible things that came into my world once I was old enough to leave home and get away from all the relentless abuse. So I particularly appreciated how Nick Cave ended his letter;

“So, Zara, a few things you need to do. Stop fucking around and get your shit together. Get clean and don’t die.”

You can read it in full here.

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Okay. That’s it. Got to get moving here.

Enjoy your Thursday, wherever you are in the world!!

Thanks for visiting. I love you guys. See ya!

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Just Posting to Say I’m Not Posting!

Hi, gang.

I just wanted to pop in to say I have too much to do right now, so I’m not really posting yet. Maybe I will pop back later this afternoon, but I’m guessing I will be busy with re-formatting the play for several days. (Just formatting the director’s edits. Nothing that requires creativity or imagination.)

Plus, I want to get my dad’s edits done on his obituary and get that back to him today.

How interesting it is to edit his obituary, gang. The things he wants to remember about his life — and what he wants others to know about his life — are, in essence, things I never really knew. (Things I knew in a broad sense, maybe, but never knew in detail. And a couple of things, I actually never knew.)

Anyway. It is very, very interesting.

And then last night, I realized I never posted the replay from Phil’s livestream this past Saturday night. It was great!! I loved it. So if you missed it, here it is:

Mugshot – August 26th, 2023 (2 hrs):

And I forgot to post this!!! Also from Saturday.

Ross K. Nichols – The Prophet Isaiah: The Call [Ep. 2] (58 mins):

And this is actually a year old, but I listened to this early this morning. I love Dr. Elaine Pagels’ works. If Gnosticism & the Nag Hammadi Library are vague landscapes for you, she can teach you everything you need to know to get started!!

Mythvision – The Gnostic God vs The Orthodox God – Dr. Elaine Pagels (16 mins):

And this morning, Nick Cave sent out a Red Hand File that I find kind of disheartening. I don’t even fit in as an average Nick Cave fan!! (I don’t fit in anywhere, as anything, really. I’m just way out there beyond the pale in all imaginable areas of life, gang.)

Anyway. He sent out the “final” Top 15 Nick Cave Playlist, which had been aggregated by feeding over 2000 fans’ playlists into ChatGPT.

From over 2000 fans, I only share 4 songs in common. And I find this just unbelievable, because my playlist consisted of way, way, WAY MORE than 15 songs, and I still only share 4 favorites in common with all those other fans.

However, dismal as it is, here’s the official Top 15 Nick Cave Playlist:

  1. Jubilee Street
  2. Into My Arms
  3. From Her To Eternity
  4. The Ship Song
  5. Tupelo
  6. The Mercy Seat
  7. Stagger Lee
  8. Push The Sky Away
  9. The Weeping Song
  10. Higgs Boson Blues
  11. Red Right Hand
  12. Ghosteen
  13. Bright Horses
  14. Straight To You
  15. O Children

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And that is it, for now.

Have a terrific Tuesday, wherever you are in the world.

Thanks for visiting. I love you guys! See ya!

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Why this song wasn’t easily on the official Top 15 is just mindboggling… Enjoy, gang.

How Long, Oh Lord, How Long?

More rogue Deep-Staters…

From Bannon’sWarRoom:

“BREAKING: Ecuadorian right-wing presidential candidate Fernando Villavicencio assassinated after political rally
Ecuadorian right-wing presidential candidate Fernando
Villavicencio has been assassinated.”

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From Stew Peters — (includes brief video footage that is disturbing and graphic):

“As Maui [Lahaina] burns to the ground, survivors dodge dead bodies in the middle of the street as they barely escape the raging “wildfires”.

This isn’t normal.”

From KanekoaTheGreat:

“Before and after photographs of the fire damage in Lahaina, Maui.

Absolutely devastating.”

“Front Street in Lahaina, Maui.

People abandoned their vehicles, jumping into the ocean to escape the fire.”

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I don’t know, gang. You kind of have to wonder if Hawaii getting its Sovereign Kingdom status restored to them has anything to do with this?

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And this wasn’t sinister, but it was still sad. So much loss.

Robbie Robertson, Leader of The Band, Dies at 80

Guitarist-songwriter-singer Robbie Robertson, who led the Canadian-American group the Band to rock prominence in the 1970s and worked extensively with Bob Dylan and Martin Scorsese, has died. He was 80.

According to an announcement from his management, Robertson died Wednesday in Los Angeles after a long illness. […]”

[full article here]

Variety

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From RealRawNews:

Military Arrests Pfizer CEO Albert Bourla

United States Marines on Monday captured Pfizer CEO Albert Bourla and killed his two bodyguards during a military-sanctioned operation to apprehend the fiendish clot shot manufacturer following his return to the United States, a source in General Eric M. Smith’s office told Real Raw News.

Bourla, a Greek American veterinarian, was last seen in the U.S. on November 8, 2022, the day after Special Forces arrested Moderna CEO Stephen Bancel at a posh D.C. eatery. Our source said the military believes Bourla learned of Bancel’s arrest and “got the hell out of Dodge” before he became the next target. White Hats learned later that Bourla had returned to Athens, from where he had been overseeing Pfizer’s global operations and devising ways of once again convincing world citizens to take his deadly booster shots.[…]”

[full article here]

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And in other news–

Nick cave sent out a Red Hand File today, in which he speaks eloquently about ChatGPT [a thing I personally despise]. In short, he had this to say:

“ChatGPT rejects any notions of creative struggle, that our endeavours animate and nurture our lives giving them depth and meaning. It rejects that there is a collective, essential and unconscious human spirit underpinning our existence, connecting us all through our mutual striving.

ChatGPT is fast-tracking the commodification of the human spirit by mechanising the imagination. It renders our participation in the act of creation as valueless and unnecessary… “

You can read it in full HERE.

HELL BY RICHARD PHILLIPS, 2007

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And that is it for today, gang. I must get ready to head back to the train station, where I am officially the night shift supervisor now…. for whatever it’s worth.

Please take care of yourselves out there, gang — wherever you are in the world.

Thanks for visiting.

I love you guys. See ya!

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I leave you with two songs.

The first, written and sung by Robbie Robertson. The second, produced by Robbie Robertson, and written by Robbie Robertson and Neil Diamond.

RIP amigo.

Brain Is Almost Working!

Yay!

I’ve been awake for over 3 hours already and my brain is almost getting ready to start doing something…

Crimony.

This is apparently one of those “I want to just sit and stare” kind of days. And I can’t afford that luxury.

I have a a ton — oops! I meant a TON — of work to do with Sandra on the play today. Well, between today and September 18th, we have a TON of work to do on the play. Meaning: All of Act Two.

Luckily, Act Two isn’t as complicated as Act One has been. But still…

Anyway!

Great news!! Saturday night, up in Montreal, Peitor Angell — my long-time dear friend as well as production partner in Abstract Absurdity Productions –got some great feedback from one of the producers he met in Cannes back in May.

This is regarding our micro-short script for “Lita måste gå!” (“Lita’s Got To Go!”).

I can’t go into any details yet, gang. But it felt so great to finally get that script back in front of people again.

Long-time readers of this lofty blog no doubt recall, that back in 2020 — before the scamdemic locked the world down — our script for “Lita måste gå!” was getting incredible feedback from everyone. We had a cinematographer on board, and a studio in Alabama on board for interior shots; we had the script breakdown done (and you may recall that I fell out of my chair when I saw the 6-figure numbers on that 10-minute film); we had upcoming meetings with Netflix and Apple TV, etc., etc.

And then our entire company came to a screeching halt. Like almost everything else in the world.

You might also recall that, back in May, when Peitor texted me at 6am from Nice and said he needed the most current version of the script to send to a couple of producers he had met in Cannes, and I had to search through 3 different laptops to find it after three years

But, I have to say, that when I read over the script, before giving it to Peitor, I fell in love with our film (and our production company) all over again. So to get a very engaging interest from a new producer was an incredibly good feeling, gang.

I will keep you posted!

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So,, if you watched Phil’s Q&A the other night, you’ll no doubt already know that BRICS is expecting to make their world-announcement on August 22nd, about being on a currency system that is backed by precious metals (or by whatever is deemed precious to a particular region, i.e., oil). And that it would behoove all of us to invest as much as we can into silver and gold before August 22nd.

We shall see, gang.

I have since added as much additional money as I can into my own little silver vault. However, how come the world doesn’t already know about BRICS? I’m not understanding that. Or do I live so deep in the alternative news system, that I lose track of what the above-ground normies do not yet know???

Could be.

Also — I have no clue if this is accurate, because I am not a member of Phil’s “Locals” subscription-group — but allegedly, during that Q&A, he gave a sign — by touching his nose– that indicated the Emergency Alert System would go off THIS WEEK.

Obviously, I just don’t know, but be prepared, gang. Mostly with 1-2 weeks of food and water for you & your pets. Cash on hand. Gas in the tank. (How often have I posted that over the years???)

If you missed it, here’s the Q&A Replay (2 hrs):

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This is interesting.

From Shadow of Ezra just now:

“The surrender of Ukraine may be disguised as a peace deal.

Kissinger’s last move.”

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If you haven’t been watching the new 8-part docu-series REMEDY, there is still a chance to catch Episode 5 and then watch it for the next 3 nights (for free). You will learn the (horrific) truth about ALL vaccines, but also the natural remedies for detoxing them from your system (including vax-induced autism in your kids):

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From Real Raw News:

The Untried and the Dead: David Axelrod

[…] The military had opened an investigation on Axelrod in February 2022, after receiving tips suggesting that his role as Obama’s political strategist was a pretextual and convenient cover for the depraved duty he performed: selecting underage boys for Obama to sexually molest.

According to our source, the military’s evidence included a video of Axelrod offering underage boys the opportunity to personally meet and dine with Barack Hussein Obama at the White House. Obama’s prey, he said, were among the forgotten–teenage runaways, street addicts, children pulled from orphanages and foster homes.

[…] Sometimes Michelle Obama, also known as Michael Robinson, stood in the shadow of the doorway and whispered in Obama’s ear as he made his selection.

The boys that made the cut went behind closed doors with the Obamas; the others left with Axelrod. In either case, they were never seen or heard from again. […]

[full article here]

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And in other news…

Nick Cave sent out another great Red Hand File over the weekend. This time, he gave advice to a young artist who is learning how to relate to her own art. He advised, in part:

Be wary of anyone who denies art its true complex and eternal nature, repurposing it for their own political contrivances. Art should not lecture or talk down to us or reprimand us. There is little left of the sacred in the modern world, but great art still offers us an opportunity to experience the hallowed, the mysterious and the reverential.…”

You can read it in full here.

And on that note, I gotta scoot! I need to run a quick errand before I hunker down with Sandra & the script for the rest of the day….

Enjoy your Monday, wherever you are in the world!

Thanks for visiting, gang.

I love you guys! See ya!

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I leave you with this!!

An eternal classic from 1894, sung by Nat King Cole, in 1963 – “The Sidewalks of New York.”

Yes, the opening musical theme to the screenplay version of my novella, Neptune & Surf— titled “Neptune Avenue.” Enjoy!

Quite An Auspicious Day!!

Yes, I sat at my desk for most of the day yesterday, with the Novitiate file open in front of me on my laptop.

And, yes! I did manage to edit two sentences the entire day!!!

But some days are just like that.

Perhaps today will yield something a little more fruitful, but two perfect sentences are still better than two sentences that were only okay…

I’m not going to tarry here today, gang. I want to make some progress on marilynsroombooks.com today, in addition to working some more on Novitiate. (There’s probably at least one sentence there that could be just a little bit better!!)

But before I go —

I thought this was very, very interesting, gang. I’m not supporting any candidates right now — everything is either optics or a psyop (or both?). But I did think Vivek Ramaswamy was a decent guy…. Oops! My mistake.

From Code Monkey Z:

“I researched Vivek Ramaswamy’s Twitter feed and found that he may not be who you think he is.

Vivek Ramaswamy
Assessing the political views and statements of a presidential candidate

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Nick Cave sent out a Red Hand File this morning that was full of his usual compassion and good advice. A reader wrote in wanting advice about how best to deal with the new responsibilities in his life after his father’s stroke.

“…I have found that embedded within these challenges there is almost always the opportunity for renewal or transformation. That is the plain but uncomfortable truth. I say this with a much conflicted heart, but it seems clear to me that the heartbreaks that routinely befall us – personally, societally or universally – are, in fact, the necessary gifts of change. These painful upheavals always provide us with the option for self-destruction or for transcendence. Heartbreak can be the engine of obliteration or growth. The choice is ours.[…]”

You can read it in full here.

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James Tabor — Jesus’ Empty Tomb? Just the Facts Please! (1 hr 12 mins):

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And that’s it for right now!

Enjoy your Monday, wherever you are in the world!!

Thanks for visiting.

I love you guys. See ya!

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Oh yes! My lying-in-bed-with-my-cup-of-coffee-listening music from this morning!!

Rod Stewart’s classic “Maggie May,” from Every Picture Tells A Story, 1971. (Yes, this means that I was eleven years old when I first fell in love with this song! And NOW, sadly, I’m older than Maggie May…) Okay, gang! Enjoy!!

Unbelievably Great Day Out There!

Wow, I awoke to the most amazing weather that we’ve had so far this summer.

Just one of those awe-inspiring, great days.

No fog, no haze, ho humidity. Not too hot but warm enough to still have all the windows open. A very light breeze. The sun coming up in a perfectly blue sky. Birds singing, everywhere.

That alone made me decide to skip the L-Theanine this morning and just see how the day goes without it.

So, we shall see!

There really isn’t anything I wanted to post about today — except for Nick Cave’s Red Hand File from yesterday!!

He recently did a podcast with Louis Theroux, but it was on Sportify, which I no longer have so I haven’t heard the interview. But, apparently, it was a good interview because it seems a ton of new people discovered Nick Cave for the first time — from all over the world. And they wrote to him, via the Red Hand Files, wanting advice about how to get started listening to his 40+ years of recorded music…

He replied, in part:

So, I wonder if those fans could help us out by writing in with a 15 song playlist of the Best of Nick Cave, and perhaps you could add your age, just for interest’s sake.[…]”

You can read it in full here.

Mid Period Nick Cave

So, here is my list— and no way on Earth could I narrow it down to 15. That was just absolutely impossible. As it was, I had to include entire ALBUMS and count them as one song! And it still came to 23… (then I also added my favorite “official videos” at the end!!) (I forgot to add my age, though, which is soon to be 63!!!! I started listening to Nick Cave when I was 25. )

  • Tupelo
    Train Long Suffering
    Hard On for Love
    Up Jumped the Devil
    The Weeping Song
    The Ship Song
    The Witness Song
    Brother, My Cup is Empty
    Counts as “one” song:
    Do You Love Me? (Parts 1&2)
    Nobody’s Baby Now
    Crow Jane
    Into My Arms
    Lime Tree Arbor
    People Ain’t No Good
    Brompton Oratory
    Hallelujah
    Love Letter
    Fifteen Feet of Pure White Snow
    Counts as “one” song:
    All of Abattoir Blues/The Lyre of Orpheus, except for “Fable of the Brown Ape”
    Counts as “one” song:
    All of Disc 3 of B-Sides & Rarities, Vol. 1
    Go Tell the Women
    Counts as “one” song:
    All of Dig!!! Lazarus Dig!!!
    Balcony Man

    Favorite “Official Videos”:
    Stagger Lee
    Red Right Hand
    Fifteen Feet of Pure White Snow

If you are a Nick Cave fan, you can probably see that after Dig!!! Lazarus Dig!!!, I don’t have a whole lot of favorites from the newer albums (in fact, just one song). It isn’t that I don’t like those albums, it’s just that I don’t play the hell out of them, as I did (and still do) with most of the older records.

Anyway.

It was fun making that list. For about half an hour, it took my mind off of everything else I constantly think of, so that was nice.

Other than that —

Indy, the visiting cat who has been hiding in my closet for 2 and a half months, wanted me to pet him again today. And this time, he actually came out of the storage closet and into the great wide open of the guest room to make that happen.

It was just so beautiful, gang. What a sweet cat he is. Just like his brother…

They will be here for about 3 more weeks.

This is a photo of them that their “mom” sent me, when they were still kittens:

Indy, behind; Alan, in front.

And that’s it!!

Oh! Except for this photo from Johnny Depp on Instagram yesterday. He was visiting the Dylan Thomas birthplace:

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The Ten Commandments series with Ross K. Nichols and Jono continues with Thou Shalt Not Steal!

Theft – The Ten Words with Ross and Jono (49 mins):

If you’re curious, I have managed (quite easily, in fact) to not break 5 of the 10 Commandments throughout 63 years of living…

I won’t tell you which five I have broken (or maybe continue to break) quite as easily as the ones I didn’t break.

And to refresh your memory, here is an original list of the Biblical “10” Commandments (depending on how you write them out, there were 11):

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Okay, enjoy your Saturday, wherever you are in the world!! (I’m guessing that if you’re in the DC area and need to score some coke, the White House would be your best bet.)

And from “Nancy Drew” this morning:

“BREAKING-💥
A seasoned investigation team has been called in to solve the mystery of the cocaine found at the WH. Ruh roh.”

Okay.

Thanks for visiting!

I love you guys. See ya!

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Yes! This song made it to my Top 23 (plus 3 complete albums…)!! A truly amazing song. Enjoy!!

Where the Heck have I been?!

Yes, I’d like an answer to that question, too!

Time is just flying, gang. Most days, I cannot keep up.

For this entire week, I did not even know what day it was. On Wednesday, I spoke with my dad and he was talking about “tomorrow is Friday…” And even though he was wrong, what I said, was: “Dad. Tomorrow’s Monday!”

And then we both realized we were both wrong… Anyway. What a weird week.

(Even Phil lost track of the days yesterday. That was funny. But he is supposed to have a livestream Q&A tonight around 7PM Eastern time. Check later to confirm!)

I’ve had a little bit of a schedule change at the train station (my part-time job, which looks like this:)

And between that and having to take 7 pages of resume notes for Sandra (40 years’ worth of her work in theater, TV, and movies) and turn it into an amazing one-page bio for her, I didn’t have time to get here yesterday.

And even today — I can’t stay here long because I’m nowhere near done on the bio. And I have to go to work today, when I used to have Fridays off. So that’s a little frustrating…

The really nice thing, though, is that I now get 4 days off for the 4th of July!!

The bad thing about that, though, is that it’s supposed to RAIN the entire time!!! (What’s going to happen to the fireworks??!!) (Plus, I was planning to FINALLY get that weeding done out in my yard.)

Here’s hoping that the weather report is simply wrong and that everything will blow over and be beautiful. Because it has been forever since I had 4 days off in a row, entirely to myself. So we’ll see.

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I have been meaning to mention this for a few months already and I keep forgetting — if you have cats or dogs who spend a lot of time outdoors, and you don’t want to give them pharmaceutical flea meds, this is what I use for Kon Tiki of the Great Outdoors (my Maine Coon cat who, as the name implies, likes to stay outside) and it works great: Vitamin B1 and Apple Cider Vinegar (powder form).

It keeps away fleas, ticks, and mosquitoes.

You want to get good quality capsules, and then it depends on the weight of your pet. Kon Tiki is under 10 pounds, so I give her about 50 mgs. of B1 and a dash of Apple Cider Vinegar powder. I open up the capsules and sprinkle the powders over her canned food and then mix iti in real good. I do this once a day.

You need to make sure they are good quality supplements. Such as:

And the even better news is that it also works on PEOPLE!

I take 100 mgs of B1 a day, and 2 ounces of liquid organic Apple Cider Vinegar. (You must give it 2 weeks to begin working.)

I no longer get mosquito bites!! Mosquitoes won’t even land on me anymore.

Also, if you like to spend time outdoors at night, try putting dried sage and dried rosemary into your campfire, fire pit or bonfire and it also helps keep mosquitoes away. (If you wrap the dried stalks in foil and then poke holes in the foil, it will burn longer.)

Anyway!! It really helps make summer evenings nicer.

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Nick Cave sent out a really wonderful Red Hand File on Wednesday. It was sort of a follow-up to the interview that he did with the Archbishop on the BBC over the weekend (I posted a link for that podcast the other day).

I just loved what he had to say in his Red Hand File (but I have to add that I find it absolutely amazing that so many people are so reluctant to believe in God nowadays. Like, it makes them stupid to fall for something like that and that to doubt the existence of God (or whatever label you want to give to Source or All That Is) makes you, I don’t know — reasonable, rational, smart? In my opinion, doubt is just resistance that wastes your time; it’s a bunch of clunky furniture you throw in your own way on the path to the river on an otherwise beautiful day. We are all — every one of us — miracle workers and all it takes is to align with the frequency of God and affirm it. And of course, I think this was done purposely — this indoctrination to get people to believe they are smarter than the idea of God. Keeps them full of obstacles of their own making, and keeps them from working miracles every day.)

Anyway — from the Red Hand File:

“[…] I live for the moments my disbelief loosens its hold and allows me to experience that lovely lightness of spirit – that elevated oneness with things, that feels like God, that feels like love.[…]”

You can read it in full here.

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And on another topic–

Here we go!! That moment we’ve been waiting for, for 9 weeks!! Ross K. Nichols and Jono continue to tackle the Ten Commandments!! This week, it’s Adultery!!!

Adultery – The Ten Words with Ross and Jono (1 hr):

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And I think that’s it for now!! I gotta scoot!

I hope you have a lovely Friday, wherever you are in the world. Try not to cry for me having to work today and all that. I will rise to the challenge!!

Thanks for visiting.

I love you guys. See ya!

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All Sorts of Good Things!

Likely the best news of all — for all of us — is that Real Raw News is reporting that Whitmer’s gonna hang. (If she hasn’t already….)

“Yes, sir, she and Garlin were discussing how Covid was fake and how the lockdowns were a social experiment to see if people obeyed orders,” Robert said.

“I want to be clear. You personally heard the defendant say Covid is fake,” the admiral said.

“I did,” Robert said. “She said it’s no different from seasonal flu.”

Gone, baby, gone!! Yippee ki yi yay!

Also —

Check out this short video from Dr. Reiner Fuellmich. Sounds ominous for any [DS] players left in the game — especially those infiltrating the Resistance.

And Disclose.TV is reporting:

Hunter Biden to plead guilty to three federal charges
Breaking news from around the world.

(My guess is that we need to read this story with many grains of salt, gang. No way has Hunter been out, roaming the world as a free agent all this time. I don’t think he’s been executed — maybe he has — but he has definitely been under arrest for a really long time. And there’s, of course, something way, way, WAY fishy about why his laptop ended up in that pawn shop to begin with. However, this story is likely optics, but optics that will lead to something very, very positive. We’ll wait and see!)

Meanwhile.

All other good news is basically in my own world–

Sandra and I have begun the line-by-line read-through of Act One of “The Guide To Being Fabulous” and I have to say yet again, gang — this show is incredible!! It is just so good.

It is a one-woman musical; Sandra’s life story — with all original songs written by her and composer, James Dower. Not only is her life incredible, but the songs are, too.

I’m not just saying this because I’m helping her write it. I’m saying this because, when she first showed me her script in 2015 and asked me to help her with it — I thought that the potential of it was incredible, way back then.

And now it is really coming to fruition.

We worked on the first half of Act One yesterday and after we were done for the day, we were both kind of speechless, going, “Wow. It’s really there. It’s finally all on the page!”

Sandra Caldwell, circa 1990s

It made me want to start drinking again; to go to the corner gas station and buy a bottle of red wine to celebrate!!

Yes! That is my life out here in the Hinterlands! Gone are the days when every celebration called for a fine bottle of SaintÉmilion from the wine shop on the corner of Broadway and W. 97th Street — and nothing less!

And now that I live in an area of the world where nary a bottle of SaintÉmilion is offered for sale, at any price —

I have learned to settle for a bottle of wine from the gas station!!

BTW, I no longer drink because, nowadays, I have such a clean diet that even half of a glass of wine gets me drunk, immediately. It is absolutely not enjoyable.

But I’m still thinking about it…

Anyway.

The other good news stems from the Red Hand File that Nick Cave sent out yesterday. He says, in part:

[Art] insists that we retract our ego, our sense of self, the cosmetics of identity and let it do its thing. We are in service to art, not the other way around.[…]

Wow, did it resonate with me, gang. Readers here know that I have been struggling, lately, to find my writer’s voice again, to make my way back into any of the many works-in-progress that are sitting here on my desk — and have been since the Fall of 2020.

It was getting frustrating, depressing, debilitating.

But that Red Hand File yesterday was so intense, it sort of blew me away. And then I was suddenly back at it. I just went right into creativity mode.

One of the first things I did was re-link my blog to my “In the Shadow of Narcissa” memoir-in-progress. I was kind of stunned to discover that the website was still there. I thought I had deleted it (only because it was getting pirated by a site in China). But I hadn’t deleted it. It was all still there; I had only unlinked it.

So I re-linked it. (There is nothing new there yet. And you can only access the link if you visit my website from a laptop or desktop. You can’t find that part of my website viewing it on a cellphone.)

And then — wow.

I cannot even recall how it started, but I was suddenly working on notes for Novitiate, an erotic novella that has also been in progress since before the war.

And the notes took me to a much deeper place — I saw that the story had to really expand, and I saw how to do that. And the whole rest of my evening — about 5 hours — was spent on making more and more notes, and suddenly having all these amazing ideas, and realizations, come to me.

Wow.

And then this morning, while I was shaving my legs (!!), I suddenly further realized that Novitiate, which takes place in 1966, and 1954 Powder Blue Pickup, which obviously takes place in 1954, were going to be part of a sort of erotic series, and that there was going to be another erotic novella after Novitiate, that was going to be about the 1970s!

Jeez. Yay. Talk about flowing…

Anyway. You can read Nick Cave’s Red Hand File here.

And I have to add, that this photo he included really nailed it for me: a photo of the chaos of Giacometti’s studio, an artist that I love. It just sort of sang out to me, really loudly, that I just have to get back in there and keep on working. So I did.

Okay. I think that’s it for now, gang.

Have a terrific Tuesday, wherever you are in the world!

Thanks for visiting.

I love you guys. See ya!

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A little bit of the “soundtrack” for Novitiate— enjoy!

Normal People Living in Hell!

Last night, I decided to cancel Cue Streaming.

It’s not yet working on my new TV, but I wasn’t down in the kitchen; I was already up in my bed, perusing the lineup of channels offered on Cue (because it works on my iPhone and on my laptop) and it was the same old, same old as ever before — the reason I canceled cable years ago. There was never anything I wanted to watch and I was always watching Amazon Prime instead.

So I canceled Cue Streaming last night and then immediately went back over to Amazon Prime and watched another episode of “The Avengers” from 1966 on the tiny yet beguiling screen of my iPhone…

I used to love “The Avengers,” back when I was a little girl, growing up in Cleveland. I wouldn’t say that I love it now, but I do like to watch Emma Peel and marvel at all her many amazing outfits and remember fondly how awesome fashions were in London in the 1960s.

If you have no idea what I’m talking about, no worries! There is absolutely no need to waste a moment, stepping back in time. Diana Rigg, the actress who played Emma Peel, is no longer even alive. And she died from old age, not because she skipped outside one merry morning and got hit by a bus while still in the bloom of youth or anything. It is sufficient to just post this photo and move ever onward into that great unknown expanse called Life:

Emma Peel, The Avengers, 1966

Of course, rumor has it among Truthers that Amazon Prime will disappear once the new Internet is up and running, but I’m willing to risk it! We’ll just have to see. If I’m left with no technology whatsoever, perhaps just a pen and some paper — that might end up being the best life yet… Creativity, without the siren call of black & white reruns.

Okay!

Today is once again wide open.

I am off work. Sandra has that meeting with the (DORA-nominated) director of our play — so no more re-writes just yet. I will still have a slew of them once we undertake Act Two.

But today (!!) — laundry is almost done, I do not have to drive to town & back for anything at all; it’s going to just be all about me and my desk and a bunch of thoughts that are in my head. (And, with luck, putting the thoughts down on paper or onto a screen of some sort.)

I’m looking forward to it.

In other news!!!

Nick Cave sent out a Red Hand File this morning. In it, he tackles the pesky problem plaguing truckloads of American families right now — “non-binary,” “trans,” “gender fluidity,” “pronoun problems.” He doesn’t go into the Neo-Marxist Indoctrination at the heart of the current Color Revolution that is hoping to upend whatever is left of the nuclear family here in America by ripping it to smithereens…

Instead, he opted to aim for the simple human heart: parents and children and unconditional love. And how the situation is always basically the same, regardless of the topic and the times. Love and acceptance are at the core of surviving it and always have been.

Just normal people living in hell.

And there was also beautiful stuff about his music…

You can read it HERE if you so choose.

All righty!

As always, James Tabor brings up a lot of points about the early Jesus Movement that are well worth pondering.

John, Jesus, Peter, Paul, and James–Sorting out the First Forty Years! (1 hr 20 mins):

That’s probably it for right now. I’m going to get started on stuff here and see where the day leads.

Enjoy your Monday, wherever you are in the world! (And yes, I am still keeping up on the war and things are absolutely horrific and more chaotic than ever. But on we go,)

Thanks for visiting, gang.

I love you guys. See ya!

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A song from yesteryear that was curiously on my mind this morning and so I share it with you! Enjoy, gang.

Just Hanging Around, Breathing!

I’m just waiting for Sandra to call so that we can go over the final revisions (for now) on Act One of the play before she heads back to Toronto tomorrow.

So here is a quick, “hi!’

Phil and Keri tied the knot yesterday!! Yay!!! Second marriages for both — I hope this one lasts a lifetime.

Nick Cave sent out a sort of strange Red Hand File this morning. But he did offer further proof that his mind is absolutely overrun by the Devil!!! (I’m just kidding but — hmmmm…..) (Illustration is from his Red Hand File)

Anyway, you can read it HERE!

This was fantastic. I love when James Tabor talks about Jesus’ possible birth father — or who they thought it was in antiquity — before Christianity was born and they began believing that Jesus had no biological father.

In the interview below, he recommends these two books, one of which I bought, the other is a little pricey…

$30.95
USED – $102

Anyway. I’m saving up for the more expensive one… If you are unfamiliar with Jesus son of Pantera, who is written about in First Century CE Jewish documents —

James Tabor – Jesus son of Pantera: Ancient Slander or Historical Probability? (1 hr 22 mins):

Wayne texted me something beautiful last night about the song “Unwed Fathers,” from John Prine’s 1984 album, Aimless Love.

For me, this song hits a little too close to home, so I have trouble listening to it. Although my birth father did not know that I’d even been born until I was 28 years old. So I don’t believe he’s the type of guy written about in this song. He was only 14 when I was conceived, but he claimed later that if he’d known I’d been born, he never would have let me get out of his life.

He had two older, married sisters — my Aunt Jo and my Aunt Bobbie Jean — who also claimed, when they found out that I existed, that they would have done all they could to keep me in the family and not let my birth mom’s father put me up for adoption, had they only known. I often wonder what that would have been like for me, since I was writing songs and teaching myself how to play the guitar by the time I was 9 years old. And my entire family, on my birth father’s side, were musical, wrote songs, played guitars — and a couple of them did it professionally in Nashville.

However, my birth mom was 13 when I was born, and so for me, this song is just too sad.

It is beautiful, though, so I share it:

And just to follow up on something I posted the other day, on Wayne’s birthday —

Here’s another one of the CDs we listened to nonstop on our honeymoon, as we drove cross-country:

And, in particular, this song. “Picture Show” — we played it over and over and sang along at the top of our happy voices — I think it’s interesting that Tom Petty wound up in the official video for it:

(As an aside — I was a HUGE James Dean fan back then. Also, John Garfield, the actor that James Dean was so fond of, was my grandma’s first cousin.)

And that is kind of it for now, gang.

I’m just kind of waiting for my iPhone to ping! Just breathing, looking at the beautiful world of summer outside my house, before I have to dive into another flurry of typing.

Enjoy your Monday, wherever you are in the world!!

Thanks for visting.

I love you guys. See ya!

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The song that was in my head first thing this morning!! So I sat in bed, drank my coffee, listened to it many times (and you know who you are !!!!!), while drinking my coffee and hanging out with Al the cat… (btw, that’s A L, not A I). Enjoy!