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Making great progress!

Yesterday afternoon, I hit a point in that book I’m editing where the narrative became a lot easier to move through.

Up until then, there were a lot of very specific, somewhat technical storylines where I had to be extremely careful that I was getting everything down correctly. Lots of numbers and definitions, etc.

But now that part of the book appears to be over, and the rest of it is moving very quickly. At this rate, I could be done editing by Saturday morning.

And I still had time to stop for about half an hour yesterday and make all the little tweaks that Sandra wanted done to her updated bio, and get that back to her.

So yesterday was ultimately a really good day.

Little known fact: a cat in your lap helps the editing process move quickly! (It actually only works if it’s an illustration of a cat and not an actual cat…)

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Okay.

Here’s an update from the Merwin Conservancy in Hawaii.

Friday, September 18, 6 PM at Mission Memorial Auditorium — Transient Worlds: A Conversation with U.S. Poet Laureate Arthur Sze & Puakea Nogelmeier

“On Friday, September 18th , at 6PM Pacific time , the 25th U.S. Poet Laureate—and former Merwin Conservancy residentArthur Sze will launch the “Words Bridging Worlds” tour in conjunction with the Library of CongressThe Merwin Conservancy, the Honolulu Mayor’s Office of Culture and the Arts and the Hawaiʻi Center for the Book. Honolulu will be the first stop on a four-city national tour encouraging Americans to engage with translations of poetry in other languages, including ʻŌlelo Hawaiʻi.”

FREE and open to the public. Register HERE.

Poet Arthur Sze

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And here’s this–

NYC LGBTQ Historic Sites is proud to support the LGBTQ+ Heritage Alliance, a national network of people interested in historic preservation and place-based research related to sites of lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender, and queer culture and history. Launched in 2025, the Alliance’s second grant cycle is now open.”

Applications are due by August 31, 2026.

The Alliance’s grant program is the first nationwide initiative dedicated to documenting, recognizing, and interpreting LGBTQ+ historic places through public-facing projects. Grants of $500–$10,000 are available for eligible nonprofit organizations and fiscally sponsored projects across the United States and its territories.

Before applying, review the guidelines HERE.

Ready to apply for a grant? Start HERE.

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And Lambda Literary invites you to a free event with poet and dramatist Rob Macaisa Colgate on Tuesday, September 15th at 7pm EST. This virtual event will feature a reading followed by a Q&A.

To register and ask a question, sign up using this form (under “Membership Type,” select “Guest).

In this webinar, Colgate will discuss his creative practice, sharing how his experiences as a poet, editor, and scholar shape his writing and offering insight into the processes through which poems and other literary works come to life. There will be ample time for audience questions.

Poet/dramatist Rob Macaisa Colgate

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And how’s this for a happy update?

The Go Fund Me drive to help guitarist Richard Lloyd fight cancer has now raised over $102,000 !!

If you can donate any amount, please visit HERE.

Guitarist Richard Lloyd

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Today, August 27th, is that day of the year where everything in my heart comes to a screeching halt for awhile.

It has now been 52 years since the very first love of my life died in a motorcycle crash at the age of 15.

From my Jr. High School yearbook , 1974

The heartache, of course, gets easier as the years fly by, but now what sort of stuns me is that SO MANY years have flown by.

The summer Greg died, I was 14 years old. And now I’m 66. I’m not sure how that happened. I’ve had an entire life and then some, since those few fleeting years when I knew Greg.

This morning, I was thinking about how the hospital that Greg had died in back then, used to be out in the middle of nowhere. At the very far eastern edge of Columbus. About 5 minutes from where each of our families lived.

Back then, the hospital looked like this, it was a solitary building, on a pond:

Mt. Carmel East, 1972

And now it literally looks like this. You need a map to find your car:

It’s the main thing I cannot stand about Columbus and why I rarely go back there. It is so overcrowded, and they never stop building stuff.

But here’s this. For Greg. From those days back then. I still love you and miss you, baby. So much.

Ringo Starr, “Photograph,” 1973.

“Photograph”

Ev’ry time I see your face,
It reminds me of the places we used to go.
But all I got is a photograph
And I realize you’re not coming back anymore.

I thought I’d make it the day you went away,
But I can’t make it
Till you come home again to stay.

I can’t get used to living here,
While my heart is broke, my tears I cried for you.
I want you here to have and hold,
As the years go by and we grow old and grey.

Now you’re expecting me to live without you,
But that’s not something that I’m looking forward to.

I can’t get used to living here,
While my heart is broke, my tears I cried for you.
I want you here to have and hold,
As the years go by and we grow old and grey.

Ev’ry time I see your face,
It reminds me of the places we used to go.
But all I got is a photograph
And I realize you’re not coming back anymore.

c – 1973 – George Harrison, Richard Starkey

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Okay.

Nick Cave & the Bad Seeds play the final concert of their summer tour TOMORROW in Paris! You can still buy a ticket HERE.

Here’s George Vjestica, hanging out in Paris!!

And while we’re at it, let’s listen to that incredible Serge Gainsbourg song, “La Janavaise”!! (1962) I love this song.

And here are a few photos of Nick Cave, out & about in Munich the other day!!

I’m guessing it will be a spectacular show. A fitting finale to a spectacular tour!

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All righty.

I’ll get that editor’s cap back on here and get down to work now.

Enjoy your Thursday, wherever you are in the world, gang.

Thanks for visiting.

I love you guys. See ya!

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Let’s close with this.

My listening-music from last night.

I played it on repeat as I was lying in bed in the dark.

There was a beautiful full moon out my window, shining down on this tiny village in the middle of the southeast Appalachian foothills. I gave up wondering how the heck I landed here all the way from NYC. I was just thinking about life itself and what the world was like when Greg was still in it.

I loved this song so much back when I was in high school. But even back then, it really haunted me.

“Even Now,” by Barry Manilow. 1978. Enjoy, gang.

“Even Now”

Even Now
When there’s someone else who cares
When there’s someone home who’s waiting just for me
Even now I think about you as I’m climbing up the stairs
And I wonder what to do so she won’t see
That even now
When I know it wasn’t right
And I found a better life than what we had
Even now I wakeup crying in the middle of the night
And I can’t believe it still could hurt so bad

Even now when I have come so far
I wonder where you are
I wonder why it’s still so hard without you
Even now when I come shining through
I swear I think of you
And how I wish you knew
Even now

Even now
When I never hear your name
And the world has changed so much since you been gone
Even now I still remember and the feeling’s still the same
And the pain inside of me goes on and on
Even now

Even now when I have come so far
I wonder where you are
I wonder why it’s still so hard without you
Even now when I come shining through
I swear I think of you
And God I wish you knew
Some how
Even now

c -1978 Barry Manilow, Martin Panzer

Oddly enough, life continues!!

Wow, is it just me, or is life just really strange these days?

Let me just say one more thing about fiverr (see yesterday’s frustrated post)– my tax paperwork got approved and before the day was over, I had already received 6 scam attempts through my new fiverr account.

Needless to say, that shit never used to happen in the old days.

Plus, I recently had a scam attempt through a writing group on the Substack app. I’ve never had that happen before on Substack, either.

And I personally think the semi-scams for writers are endless now on LinkedIn so I try to stay off of there. (LinkedIn started out as a whole different thing 20 years ago, when I first started using it — long before it was an overcrowded phone app.)

Anyway. I won’t go on and on about it, but phone apps targetting writers (that have basically replaced the corresponding websites) are my new pet peeve.

But I have to say, that both the Tabor Research Group and Ross K. Nichols’ private Yachad, now have phone apps and they are fantastic. But they’re private, members-only type apps.

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Okay!

So.

On to happier things!

I had a chance to read the short story Maxim Jakubowski contributed to our upcoming anthology honoring the life of M. Christian, and it was fantastic. It was such a joy to read it — erotic but also an undercurrent of sci-fi. And I know for certain M. Christian would have loved it.

Maxim Jakubowski

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Before I forget, I thought I would just post a little update regarding me and Sandra and our upcoming staged reading in NY for our play, “The Guide to Being Fabulous”.

Sandra is in Los Angeles, working on a different project right now and we are sort of playing “text-tag.”

If I don’t get assigned to a jury on Tuesday (when I have to report for jury duty), then we will finally get a chance to really catch up.

But if I do get put on a jury, then who knows how long it will be…

Ditto for the podcast that Valerie and I are trying to finally launch. Valerie’s hands have recovered quite nicely from the surgeries and she texted me a photo of her current painting-in-progress yesterday and I just loved it!!

So now she’s just waiting on me and my unkown schedule at this point. But it’s all coming, eventually.

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Okay, on to the Sealey Challenge!

I did indeed re-read half of Lunch Poems (by Frank O’Hara, City Lights Books, 1964) last evening. I will finish it tonight.

And it was indeed very emotional for me. Quite a few of the poems were familiar to me long before I first read Lunch Poems in 1984, because those poems had been included in The Selected Poems of Frank O’Hara, which I’d pretty much had memorized since I first read that in1975.

And yes, I even took the book to school with me back then, even though it quite clearly has a drawing on the cover by Larry Rivers of Frank O’Hara totally naked…

I digress!

The emotional part about re-reading Lunch Poems last night was all those references to places in NYC (and also Paris) that were totally foreign to me when I was first reading his poems at age 15, alone in my room in Ohio in 1975.

Not only are they no longer foreign, but they became places, buildings, shops, museums, even train stops, that I came to know very well.

And now it’s all part of my distant past. When did that fucking happen?

Anyway. I found the short video below online last night and I wanted to share it. It is Frank O’Hara reading 2 poems in 1964 that I came to know by heart as a young girl. (The first poem is about the day Billie Holiday died.)

But mostly, I wanted you to notice at the end of the first poem, when they pull back and show you Frank’s apartment in downtown NYC — my apartment on E. 12th Street looked exactly like that, with the built-in bookshelves next to the old fireplace! And everything painted white. (My apartment had two fireplaces! And they have since gutted the apartment and got rid of all of that cool stuff.)

After Lunch Poems, I will either re-read Baudelaire’s Flowers of Evil (a 1952 edition that I’ve owned for over 40 years, that has the original French alongside the English translations).

Or I will read Drunk on Angel Breath by R. Nikolas Macioci. (He was the the teacher I was so blessed to have in Jr. High School who literally taught me how to write, on his own time, after school.)

Venetian Spider Press, 2024

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Okay!

There is only one “here’s this” today that is not connected to Nick Cave & the Bad Seeds!!

And that “here’s this” is THIS!!

From Johnny Depp’s new Sauvage campaign with Dior!

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Okay.

Here’s an older photo of Nick Cave that I just loved!

Photo by Brian Rasic

And here’s a photo from July, back in Vienne, France, that I also just love!

Photo by Andrew Trute

And the rest are all from Belgrade last night — and I have to say (again), the show looked INCREDIBLE! So many great photos and videos that it was sort of overwhelming this morning.

Here’s Warren Ellis last night:

And the rest are basically Nick Cave.

Nick Cave & the Bad Seeds play Romania tomorrow night. You can buy tickets here!

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And that is it for today, gang!

I have so much to do at my desk today — in preparation for maybe not having anytime at all after Tuesday, if I get assigned to a jury.

I am still hoping that they will let me go but we shall see.

In the meantime, enjoy your Saturday, wherever you are in the world, gang!

Thanks for visiting.

I love you guys. See ya!

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Let’s close with this!

Some more of that making-the-bed music!!

From the Oldies FM Radio Station on the retro boombox next to my bed!

Saturday mornings are “Amazing 80s Day” and the DJ launched this morning’s show with this absolute gem!! Talk about memories from my Paradise Apartment on E.12th Street in the East Village in NYC!! I used to play this song so loud!

“Born in the USA”, Bruce Springsteen, 1984. Enjoy, gang.

New habits underway in the Hinterlands!

Okay, so it’s looking like Tuesdays are now my new day to go to town and get the groceries!

And, wow, it is another really gorgeous day today, gang. It will be such a lovely drive.

And I’ve decided to stop in at the Honda dealership in town, too, and see if there’s any way at all they would let me either re-negotiate the lease on my current Honda Civic, or let me trade it in a year early (on a 3-year lease).

My current lease was negotiated back when I still had really horrible credit, leftover from the bankruptcy caused by the scamdemic lockdowns. And so my monthly payment is really high — over twice what I usually paid on leases before the bankruptcy.

I was really grateful that they still arranged a lease for me on a brand new car when I had such lousy credit, but, well, I thought I’d just see if I have any options 2 years later. (Sometimes they want the cars back so that they can turn around and sell them used for a “truckload” of money…) We’ll see. I still love the car. I just don’t love the high payment.

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All right.

If you didn’t see the recent video on social media of the new Rolling Stones song, “Mr. Charm”, underscoring some really funny footage of Ronnie Wood being, well, annoying in the recording studio… Well, it was really cute!

And now! Ronnie Wood announces a new work of art! Limited to 195 prints, each is hand-signed, numbered, and named. Coming August 7th!! (Order it HERE)

“Mr. Charm”:

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Yesterday, the weekly newsletter from Black Lawrence Press reminded us to take the Sealey Challenge in August!!

“The Sealey Challenge, a community challenge to read one poetry book a day in the month of August, is in its 10th year! Be sure to check out their website for bingo cards, participation suggestions, and ways to modify the challenge if you don’t have the time to devour 31 whole books this month.”

And, yes! Since I have plenty of TIME now, I began the challenge yesterday by reading Thaddeus Rutkowski’s new poetry collection, Tracks In Snow (Finishing Line Press).

I really enjoyed it! (Although I love everything he’s ever written…)

I realized that I easily have at least 31 books of poetry in the house already — about 29 of which I haven’t read in a really long time. Plus, about 15 of them were written by poets that I actually know, so it will be fun to revisit everyone.

Next up is Awakened (2006, Rogues Scholars Press) by Iris N. Schwartz & Madeline Artenberg. Both just wonderful poets! But apparently, I haven’t read the book in 20 years!! I’m looking forward to reading it again tonight.

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Before I forget, I found out some really disturbing news yesterday about the new neighbors across the road from me — the ones who recently bought and are rehabbing the little 125-year-old house that has sat empty for 8 years…

They spend their winters in Florida!!!

I was flabbergasted!

ME (flabbergasted): “You mean, you’re not going to be here for Christmas??!!”

HE: “We’re not into Christmas. Never have been.”

I was so looking forward to seeing how they were going to decorate the little house… Oh well.

(Loyal readers of this lofty blog no doubt recall that I am in no way over-the-top about Christmas…)

Not me

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Okay.

Here’s this!

I hear that train a-coming, honey!!

Johnny Cash, in front of Folsom Prison, 1968!!

And here’s this (again), while we’re at it! One of my favorite songs of all time!! Johnny Cash, “Folsom Prison Blues” LIVE, 1968!!

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And here are a few more photos from the Bad Seeds’ show in Dresden on Sunday!!

George & Larry!

And here’s this! Nick Cave in “Fucking Dresden — so beautiful!” I concur!!

And another WONDERFUL shot of Nick–

Tonight & tomorrow, Nick Cave & the Bad Seeds play Croatia! Tomorrow is SOLD OUT, but you can buy tickets here for tonight if you hurry — and if, you know, you , like, live down the block…!!

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All righty.

That is it!

I am off to town to run the various errands.

Have a terrific Tuesday, wherever you are in the world!

Thanks for visiting.

I love you guys. See ya!

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Let’s close with this!

Speaking of poetry in August…

Yes, I am still reading John Cooper Clarke’s really long autobiography (and still loving it!!) I Wanna Be Yours (Picador UK, 2020).

So, from the punk poet himself, John Cooper Clarke, a punk poetry recital on London TV in 1980: “Beasley Street”. Enjoy, gang!