Phil just posted a video comm, that basically says no, no, no. I guess referencing a Q post whose delta is this Sunday( ?). Not sure. Don’t forget, he’s live tonight at 7pm eastern.
And Charlie Ward had a short TikTok communication here.
Other than that, just tons of posts from everywhere re: the new Speaker of the House being a mega MAGA (and also anti-LGBTQ+). And then war war war….
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Meanwhile….
The flight to Toronto was quick, easy, friendly, and uneventful. No masks, no vaxes, no swab tests, no lockdowns, no arrests for being an alleged domestic terrorist, so it was basically just perfect.😄 My Uber was ready and waiting for me when my plane landed, however, I was on the wrong level and at the wrong door…. Eventually, though, it was perfect.
The Airbnb high rise condo is super sterile and futuristic and full of electronic safety features that were super hard to figure out (😂), however it’s really nice, with cool views, and an incredible grocery store right across the street that has tons of organic, nonGMO items to choose from— and Wayne only rolled his eyes once !! Unlike me, he is willing to eat basically anything, but last evening, while grocery shopping, he announced: “I’ve decided that I’m saying ‘why not?’ to everything today, so just put it in the basket!” So that was quite an unexpected cool little thing! And so everything in our basket was organic, nonGMO…
Here are some photos from our balcony this morning!
The sun coming up over the water in the distance:
A couple more views from the balcony:
Wayne, checking his email on his iPad:
Some of our groceries, along with Wayne’s head😂🤣😂🥰:
And that’s it for now!!!
Tonight, we will actually get to have dinner with Sandra before attending the preview of the play! It will be casual tonight but I’m still super excited.
Okay!
Have a great Friday, wherever you are in the world!
Okay, Phil announced yesterday that he will go live tomorrow night, Friday, Oct.27, qt 7PM eastern time. Check tomorrow to confirm.
My sister dropped off my mom around 7 last evening. I had not seen either of them since before the scamdemic. Almost 4 years. But there we all were, chatting away, catching up, just like the old days.
Weird, how suddenly everything feels back to normal, although we’re all noticeably older…
Plus, I haven’t flown anywhere in 4 years, either. It’s so weird how now you do all that check-in stuff on your phone! Check in, get your seat number, give them all your passport info, check your baggage, get your boarding pass — all of it, on your phone. And my e-boarding pass even had my TSA Pre-check on it.
It’s just weird.
Of course, I immediately closed the wrong window and lost the whole thing….(they re-sent it).
Anyway. Off I go. I am finally feeling really excited, gang. Partly because Wayne will already be there when I get there and he’ll be waiting outside of the high rise for my (excruciatingly expensive) Uber to arrive, with me inside it, with my stupidly heavy suitcase, and wearing my awesome David Bowie tee shirt that Wayne had made for me on one of my birthdays a few years ago….
This is where he and I are staying in Toronto:
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Okay.
Nick Cave sent out a Red Hand File yesterday that was very beautiful. And empowering. Advising a reader about how best to deal with a recent drug overdose. He wrote, in part:
“[…] if it is related to drug dependency then in my experience people don’t usually overdose just once – they tend to overdose a couple of times, and then all too often die.[…]”
And he went into detail about what happens after you get clean. In part:
“[… If you persevere, in time you will have an entirely different problem – not that life is meaningless, but rather that life has almost too much meaning.[…]”
I so totally agree with that.
When I was in my early teens, I had a very serious drug problem. It wasn’t heroin, though. But I OD’d more times than I can even remember. And then, eventually, almost died. Twice.
Now, I can’t even imagine living in that much despair. Even when I’m battling depression, it is never as bad as it was in those early days of my life. I can’t imagine having missed out on all the incredible things that came into my world once I was old enough to leave home and get away from all the relentless abuse. So I particularly appreciated how Nick Cave ended his letter;
“So, Zara, a few things you need to do. Stop fucking around and get your shit together. Get clean and don’t die.”
On deck: Putin declaring war on Israel; Xi guards the Mediterranean.
And by default, war is also declared on the fake Biden. New Admin takes over in the USA.
Finally.
We hope.
If you missed it, here’s the replay (1 hr):
And right on time–
From Charlie Ward’s e-newsletter this morning:
Putin Calls For Humanitarian Aid
“Russian President Vladimir Putin spoke with Brazilian President (?) Luiz Inacio Lula da Silva in a telephone call on Monday, discussing their deep concern over the escalating civilian casualties in Gaza. The Kremlin released a statement highlighting their joint emphasis on the urgent need for a ceasefire, the safe evacuation of foreign nationals from the Gaza Strip, and the critical importance of facilitating unimpeded access for humanitarian assistance into the region. The leaders’ call underscores their commitment to addressing the humanitarian crisis in Gaza and preventing further loss of innocent lives.”
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So here’s hoping none of this starts while I’m still in Canada, but that all of it comes to its conclusion before Christmas. Would that be too much to hope for, gang?
We’ll have to see.
Okay.
That’s it for now.
I will likely be posting to the blog while I’m in Canada, but it won’t be anything too elaborate, because I will only have my phone. I’m not bringing my laptop.
Have a great Wednesday, wherever you are in the world!
In case you didn’t know yet, Phil will be doing a livestream tomorrow, Tuesday, Oct. 24th, the time has not been announced yet, though. Check here to confirm. He says that the “intel will rock our world.” (Hopefully he means in a good way…)
A very great update: BENJAMIN FULFORD UPDATE TODAY OCTOBER 23, 2023 (19 mins):
Also, tonight — Nick Cave in Austin!! But it is SOLD OUT!
And tomorrow at noon, Central Daylight Time, he’ll be doing an instore book signing at BookPeople.
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And I can’t wait to read this! It comes out tomorrow, on Bill Wyman’s birthday — Billy in the Wars:
“Billy in the Wars is the illustrated memoir of ex-Rolling Stone Bill Wyman, recalling his experiences as a young boy growing up in wartime Britain. Bill brings history to life through the personal lens of his childhood memories, where grim anecdotes of war are punctuated by moving moments of childhood innocence and joy. […]”
I won’t be buying it until I get back from Canada, but the excerpts I’ve seen so far have been just wonderful.
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From James Tabor – Bible Prophecy #13–Floating Prophecies and Israel’s Future (32 mins):
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That’s it for now!
I hope you’re enjoying your Monday, wherever you are in the world!!
Thanks for visiting. I love you guys. See ya!
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One of the best songs to listen to while driving on the backroads during this glorious autumn! I almost, you know, left my body in joy, while driving to town for the groceries this morning. Unbelievably beautiful. Try it soon!! Okay. Enjoy.
This was interesting. It’s a long article, but if you have a strong stomach, you should read the whole thing.
From Real Raw News:
“Special Forces-Spetznas Team Crushes Adrenochrome Cartel in Ukraine
[…] According to sources in Gen. Smith’s offices and at the FSB, Russia’s Federal Security Service, the joint unit capsized a multi-billion-dollar Adrenochrome cartel that had been operating with impunity along the Ukraine-Poland border. Sources said the unit spent the first half of October dismantling the Radchenko Cartel, which kidnapped countless children, sucked their adrenal glands dry, and, after nourishing them back to reasonable health, sold them to pedophiles and into sex slavery. Reportedly, children can be drained several times before adrenal fluid becomes inert.[…]
[…] Special Forces/Spetznas surveilled the building and saw no bubblegum or tattoos, and whoever had occupied the warehouse appeared to have departed hastily, leaving behind three dozen medical-grade refrigerators, often used to chill Adrenochrome, and 6,000 grams of fentanyl, one of several synthetic opioids common in Adrenochrome formulations. They also found the decomposed remains of a man with a bullet in his head and whose identification and cell phone the killers had conveniently left at the scene. Spetznas knew him as Sergei Nicholas, a prolific Ukrainian drug trafficker with a penchant for peddling drugs to school kids. For reasons unknown, the cartel had apparently whacked its henchman.
The Special Forces-Spetznas team set explosive charges and destroyed the building.[…]
[…] Her information brought the unit back to Ukraine, where they split into two tactical teams. One penetrated the Deep State coven of Kyiv and put surveillance on Radchenko’s lavish townhouse in the wealthy Pecherskyi District, along the Dnipro River, a region magically unscathed after two years of alleged unremitting hostilities.
“We do not bomb civilians like your media says,” a Spetznas told his Special Forces associate. “We do like you. We attack only the Deep State.” […]
[…] As the missiles showered the park, the Kyiv team raided Radchenko’s villa, killing him, his mistress, two dozen armed guards, and, unfortunately, the 9-year-old boy Radchenko had been raping.
“The innocent sometime get caught in the fog of war. There’s no such thing as a perfect plan; it’s a myth,” our source in Gen. Smith’s office said. “This should put big dent in the Adrenochrome trade, but there’s so many kids unaccounted for still.”[…]”
We are also being told to watch Putin and Xi, instead of Israel and Gaza. I can only imagine it has something to do, ultimately, with BRICS, but I don’t know for certain. However.
From RT this morning:
‘US GLOBALIZATION TYPE BASED ON ZERO-SUM GAME, CHINESE ON MUTUAL BENEFIT’ – ZHANG WEIWEI (1 minute):
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Other than that, it is an unbelievably stunning autumn day here in the Hinterlands! For the next few days, I’ll be doing laundry, cleaning the house, getting the yard ready for winter and bringing the plants indoors, going into town to run all my errands before my birth mom arrives to look after my cats while I’m in Toronto.
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All right. Well.
Yesterday, I began posting to my new free substack account. I did not announce it at all, and yet 35 people went there anyway. And a few more have already been there this morning. I don’t know where these readers are coming from, but since everyone already seems to be there…
Here’s the official announcement!
If you’re on your computer, the link to my substack is at the top left corner of this page.
If you’re on your phone, in the drop-down menu at the top right, scroll all the way down to the bottom link, and the substack link is there.
Erotic stories & brief memoirs, excerpts from new published works, and excerpts from works-in-progress will be posted there (and not here) from now on.
But please keep in mind, all of the projects from Marilyn’s Room Books are intended for adults only. Thank you.
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And tonight! In Dallas! As far as I know, tickets are still available. After that, only 4 more shows before Nick Cave’s Solo Tour/with bass player is over, and the remaining shows, after tonight, are sold out!
Plus, Nick Cave will be doing two more in-store book signings this coming week. One in Austin, and one in LA:
Okay.
I’m off to finish the laundry!! And get more coffee!!
Enjoy this wonderful Sunday, wherever you are in the world!
Thanks for visiting. I love you guys. See ya!
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More from the “soundtrack” of my novella-in-progress, “Novitiate”!
July of 1966, Tommy James & the Shondells, “Hanky Panky”. Enjoy!
I am absolutely in a full-on depression here, gang. Too much going on in all areas of my life, and of course, in the world.
This was posted (Q-related) to Phil’s chat just after midnight, and it was very helpful:
“I *REALLY* want & need you ALL to understand something:💥 RIGHT NOW, we need to be the MOST ASTUTE to what is happening all around us.
THIS is the “FOG OF WAR”. It is CONFUSING, MADDENING, INFURIATING, & SCARY AF. HOWEVER: WE ARE ALL TOGETHER. WE HAVE WHAT WE NEED RIGHT IN FRONT OF US: EACH OTHER.
DO NOT listen to the NOISE. PAY ATTENTION re: PROPAGANDA: LISTEN TO THE LIES FOR WHAT THEY ARE! THERE IS NO “SIDE” here, Folks. IT’S THE SAME BEAST.
The fight for the DNA is real. WE PASSED THAT ONE.
Now it’s a fight for our MINDS. We have to STICK TOGETHER on this. DO NOT BE SWAYED. WE KNOW THIS HAS ALREADY OCCURED. WE KNOW THAT IT MUST PLAY OUT. SO, FOCUS ON OTHER THINGS: FOCUS ON GOD. FOCUS ON YOUR FAMILY. FOCUS ON POSITIVITY & LIGHT.
DO NOT LET YOUR MINDS BE WROUGHT w/ FEAR & CONFUSION. THAT’S WHAT THEY WANT – It’s how they BEAT YOU.
The ULTIMATE FIGHT is for our SOULS. If they can beat your MIND? It’s easy to take over the rest of ya. 🔥DON’T LET THEM.🔥“
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Obviously, everything everywhere seems to be just barreling out of control into utter chaos — although we were always warned that the end was going to “look like WW3” and it certainly does.
Anyway.
Too many lies all over the place. I don’t want to say that I give up, because I don’t give up. But the only thing I can do and still remain sane is to step back from all of it and from everybody, for now.
And I am also going to try like hell to just go on auto-pilot the whole time I’m in Toronto, primarily because of the unavoidable politics surrounding “The Guide to Being Fabulous.”
The only thing I know for certain right now is that MK Ultra was unbelievably successful. On all of us, even those of us who are old enough to have been taught critical thinking along side the decades of cultural mind control.
And for a whole lot of people, its grip remains unbelievably tenacious. It is so depressing.
Meanwhile.
After 3 and 1/2 years of being segregated from my writing career, and in that time span, essentially losing all of my readers, I am having a stressful/strenuous(?) time, trying to regain that voice in my head that was present when I began all these half-finished projects, over 3 years ago.
When I read over them now, I realize that there is so much about my own life as a writer, that I am forgetting. And I don’t want to lose that. I don’t want to lose my grasp on that voice I always had in my head as a writer. I am really struggling with it.
And part of it is because this blog used to be all about my writing and my readers, and since 2020, it was turned over to all the Q stuff and the fight to save the children and the US Constitution.
Until this war is over, it doesn’t seem likely that I will get my blog back (psychologically), so I decided to start a free substack. It will be ready early next week. That will be the place where I post my works-in-progress, like I used to do here.
And it will be for adults only, since my writing is intended for adults.
So I will keep you posted on the progress of that.
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Okay.
Happy Heavenly Birthday, Tom Petty. I love you. RIP.
(Below is one of my favorite songs of his — over the years, I’ve played it over and over and over, during those times when I am barely making it and trying to make sense of everything and to just keep going. “Only A Broken Heart” — he wrote it for his wildly successful Wildflower solo album, the album he made in 1994, when he was trying to come to terms with wanting a divorce from Jane.)
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Okay. Have a happy Friday, wherever you are in the world.
But now there is a post on his channel from this morning — a tiktok video featuring a girl who absolutely looks like she was generated by A.I., but that’s sort of how young women want to look these days.
Wherever he really is right now, he is posting from somewhere that doesn’t allow me to copy & paste his posts, so I can only paste the links. But please read them if you haven’t already.
And in other Italy news — on Charlie Ward’s channel there is a tiktok video regarding Italy being the first country in the world to outlaw synthetic meats and synthetic foods of all kinds. The video is HERE.
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I am in a high level of anxiety these days. I am pretty much staying off the internet and trying to focus on my writing. Making good progress on the novella, “Novitiate.” So that’s good. It helps me ignore the anxiety.
Today I go back to the train station for the next few days. And as luck would have it — we are expecting rain for the next few days! I guess we’ll see how that goes. But this will be my last week at work before I go to Toronto for the opening of our play, “The Guide to being Fabulous.”
If I don’t make it to the blog tomorrow:
Nick Cave will be in Atlanta!! But it is sold out…
And tomorrow is the heavenly birthday of my beloved Tom Petty! He would have been 73, which I find utterly impossible to wrap my mind around….here he was at age 27, one of my favorite photos of him:
RIP Tom Petty 1950-2017
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That’s it, gang.
Enjoy your Thursday, wherever you are in the world.
Simon Parkes had a great update yesterday. It was balanced and insightful about both Israel and the RV.
If you aren’t a member of Connecting Consciousness, you won’t be able to watch the video. But joining is free and you can join HERE. (It can take a while to be approved, though.) (Briefly, regarding Israel: he says that there is indeed “a war” of sorts going on there, but it is not what it seems, and that the images you are being shown on MSM and even in Alt media are purposely misleading and intended to upset you.)
This just sickens me, gang. Even this late in the game, they are still going to arrest Truthers? I have no clue if this is optics, or what it is. But you can send postcards to him here:
JVA Rosdorf Dr. Reiner Füllmich Am Großen Sieke 8 37124 Rosdorf
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Yesterday, I had to write up a brief note “from Sandra” that will go in the show’s program at Soulpepper when our play opens there next week. In going over my files from 2014 (!!), I found this photo that I just love — the women in Sandra’s family. They were all very supportive of her throughout her life, including during her transition:
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Today at noon in Nashville, TN! Nick Cave will be doing an in-store signing of his book, Faith, Hope & Carnage, at Parnassus Books.
And tonight, he’ll be live at the Ryman!!!! Tickets are still available.
A fan took this photo of Nick Cave outside the theater in Detroit Sunday night. I think it’s so funny! Probably the worst photo of him that I have ever seen. (It was really windy and he was in a hurry to get into the theater…):
Photo by Wojtek Kostrubiec
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That’s kind of it.
I’ll close with this today: Over the weekend, I happened upon an old Randy Travis CD, Storms of Life, from 1986. I used to love Randy Travis, but at some point, he just slipped out of my consciousness.
I immediately remembered that the song “Storms Of Life” was a song that was sort of my anthem to my birth father, but I didn’t remember why. So I put the CD into the CD player in my kitchen and took quite a trip down Memory Lane!! Even though my birth dad has been dead now since 1999, that song still reminds me of the (really complicated) man I knew so briefly.
And then I remembered that there was some other song of Randy Travis’s that I really loved but I couldn’t remember what it was, so I started hunting for other Randy Travis CDs, and I found the song. A huge hit from 1987, “Forever and Ever, Amen.”
I took that out, too, and played it and suddenly recalled how that was the song that played right after Wayne & I said “I do” at our wedding and then turned to go up the aisle as married people!! (Yes, I am incredibly romantic.) (We walked down the aisle to “The Hawaiian Wedding Song,” from Elvis’ movie Blue Hawaii, and then up the aisle to “Forever and Ever, Amen.”)
So I’ll leave you with both of those great Randy Travis songs below!
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Have a terrific Tuesday, wherever you are in the world.
Thanks for visiting. I love you guys. See ya!
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“Storms of Life”
“The Storms Of Life”
There’s a dirty piece of cardboard That reads Montgomery Ward Taped across the window of my old Ford. A six-pack on the front seat and a box of chicken wings, I’m dialin’ ‘cross the radio for a song that I can sing
I’d better change my wandrin ways, I know I’ve seen my better days, Always gettin’ high when I get low. Well, I left my soul out in the rain, Lord, what a price I’ve had to pay. The storms of life are washin’ me away.
An old mail pouch, tobacco sign Fadin’ on the barn, Bringin’ back sweet memories of Mama’s farm When love was just a country girl that lived on down the road. [Spoken:] you know, she almost had me turned around, But that was years ago.
I’d better change my wandrin ways, I know I’ve seen my better days, Always gettin’ high when I get low. Well, I left my soul out in the rain, Lord, what a price I’ve had to pay. The storms of life are washin’ me away. Yeah, the storms of life are washin’ me away.
C 1986 – Max Barnes, Troy Seals
“Forever and Ever, Amen”
“Forever and Ever, Amen”
You may think that I’m talkin’ foolish You’ve heard that I’m wild and I’m free You may wonder how I can promise you now This love that I feel for you always will be
But you’re not just time that I’m killin’ I’m no longer one of those guys As sure as I live, this love that I give Is gonna be yours until the day that I die
Oh, baby, I’m gonna love you forever Forever and ever amen As long as old men sit and talk about the weather As long as old women sit and talk about old men If you wonder how long I’ll be faithful I’ll be happy to tell you again I’m gonna love you forever and ever Forever and ever, amen
They say time takes its toll on a body Makes the young girls brown hair turn gray But honey, I don’t care, I ain’t in love with your hair And if it all fell out, well, I’d love you anyway
They say time can play tricks on a memory Make people forget things they knew Well, it’s easy to see, it’s happenin’ to me I’ve already forgotten every woman but you
Oh, darlin’, I’m gonna love you forever Forever and ever amen As long as old men sit and talk about the weather As long as old women sit and talk about old men If you wonder how long I’ll be faithful Well, just listen to how this song ends I’m gonna love you forever and ever Forever and ever, amen
I’m gonna love you forever and ever Forever and ever, forever and ever Forever and ever, amen
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