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Just A Stunning Evening!

Yesterday ended just as gloriously as it started out, gang. Weather-wise! It was such a beautiful evening here in the Hinterlands.

I finally finished both the updated résumé and new bio for Sandra and got it off to her around 4PM. And finally had everything off my plate — for a little while, anyway.

And what a beautiful feeling.

During dinner last night, I watched a really cool episode of The Avengers, from 1964 (Honor Blackman as Mrs. Gale — the Emma Peele character was not in the series yet.) (Honor Blackman is also famous for having played “Pussy Galore” in the James Bond movie, Goldfinger, and “Honey West” on TV!)

As Pussy Galore, in James Bond
As private-eye, Honey West, on TV

And in 1964, my aunt bought me a Honey West doll for my birthday!!! I was absolutely thrilled!

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Anyway. I digress.

After dinner, I did yoga, took my shower, did one of the lessons in the online course I’m studying (again) on the Book of Genesis.

And then, at 9PM, when Phil’s livestream did not come on, I did something I’ve been wanting to do all summer!!

I sat out on my kitchen porch, with my Maine Coon cat, Kon Tiki of the Great Outdoors, and a visiting neighbor cat — that I call Ginger Boy. And I watched the sun go down, and watched all the fireflies blinking like crazy for as far as the eye could see. Listened to the birds singing, as they settled in for the night.

And, with nary a mosquito bothering me at all — I ate a Jonny Pop organic watermelon popsicle and just had the very best evening.

I had ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO DO!!!! Nothing, zippo, zero, nada. Wow.

And when I went in for the night, I watched two more episodes of Yogi Bear from Season 4, followed by an utterly ridiculous episode of Huckleberry Hound!! And then I turned everything off and just listened to the night outside my open windows.

And here is a selfie from last evening — I could not believe how happy I looked, so I took a photo! (And FYI, I will be 63 in 11 days….)

Marilyn Jaye Lewis, 62 years and 354 days old!

If you are interested in reading an extremely condensed version of Sandra’s career — here is her new Bio. (For now! I’m guessing it’ll have to be tweaked a bit.)

Sandra Caldwell

Bio

“A true entertainer in every sense of the word…”  NY Times

“A black transgender woman of immense poise, beauty, and – pardon me, I can’t help it – charm…” Variety

“A provocative entertainer combined with powerful vocal skills, Sandra Caldwell has it all…”   Toronto Star

Sandra Caldwell is a celebrated African American trans actress, singer, and writer whose 45+ year career extends throughout the worlds of film, television, and theater.

Starting out as a jazz singer – her first love – she performed with top orchestras in some of the world’s finest venues, including the Montreal Jazz Festival, the Montreux Jazz Festival, the Newport Jazz Festival, and the White House Jazz on the Lawn series. In her early days, she was a fixture in the café society set in numerous nightspots across the country, also hosting the radio show, Sunday Afternoons with Sandra Caldwell on Jazz FM91 in Toronto.

On television, Sandra was seen in recurring roles in The Gilded Age, High Maintenance, The Book of Negroes, 19-2, Soul Food, and, as a series regular, in Little Men. She had guest-starring roles in such hit shows as Law & Order: SVU and Rookie Blue. Sandra was a featured performer in many TV movies, including Good Fences with Whoopie Goldberg, and Disney’s The Cheetah Girls.

Sandra’s film work includes the upcoming Jackie Shane and Milo & Millie, as well as memorable work in past films, such as Murder at 1600; Shall We Dance, and Maya Angelou’s directorial debut, Down in the Delta.

In theater, Sandra appeared in the musical Buddy: The Buddy Holly Story (Shubert Theater); the Original Workshop for Ragtime (Live Ent. Productions); the drama Coming Through Slaughter (Necessary Angel Theater, Toronto); and was nominated for a Dora Award, the Canadian Tony, for her work in Sophisticated Ladies (Sterling Productions, Toronto).

Notably, in 2017 in the NY Times, Sandra came out publicly as transgender while in rehearsals for her transgender leading role in the critically acclaimed “Charm” (MCC Theater).

Additionally, in 2020, she spoke candidly about transgender representation in the media, in the “enlightening and heartfelt” (- LA Times) Netflix documentary “Disclosure: Trans Lives on Screen”.

A bona fide heroine of today’s LGBTQ+ generation, Sandra’s long awaited self-penned, one-woman show, “The Guide to Being Fabulous”, is a jazz musical that tells the real story of Sandra Caldwell’s unparalleled life. From a young runaway, panhandling on the streets of DC, to the Moulin Rouge in Paris, to her role as Mama Morton in “Chicago” at the Stratford Festival (“4-Stars!” – Toronto Star), she has done it all and endured it all, without losing sight of her comedic timing, her turn of phrase, or her compassion.

Yes, an entertainer in every sense of the word; ladies and gentlemen, we give you…

Miss Sandra Caldwell

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So, today I’m going to work on — I DON’T KNOW YET!! I only know it’s going to be something of my very own. And I can’t wait. And I have the whole entire day off to do it in.

Before I forget!

Here is the link to that podcast interview with Nick Cave on Spotify. I haven’t listened yet — it’s 1 hr and 19 mins.

Also–

There is still time to buy tickets to some of the cities on Nick Cave’s North American solo tour, coming up this fall. Check for available tickets HERE.

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Saw this on Real Raw News this morning:

Brock Long Executed

Former FEMA director Brock Long was hanged at Guantanamo Bay Monday morning,[…]”

[full article is here]

Also–

Charlie Ward has a new telegram channel. You can follow it HERE.

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And this stuff just makes me nuts, gang.

The Neo Marxist cultural agenda to weaken the male sex and obliterate masculinity. Want to find out what they’re doing to little boys in US public schools (among other things)? It’ll make you sick.

Anyway, here it is, if you missed it. Tucker interviews Andrew Tate (2 hrs):

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From James Tabor – How Bloody Torture Demanded Resurrection of the Dead (40 mins):

Nehemiah Gordon’s Interview with Ross K. Nichols

Hebrew Voices #-161 – The Moses Scroll – NehemiasWall.com (1 hr):

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And that is it for today!!!

Have a wonder-filled Wednesday, wherever you are in the world!

Thanks for visiting.

I love you guys! See ya!

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My breakfast-listening music today was The Best of 60s Surf!

I’ll leave you with a couple of tunes from that today! Enjoy, gang!

I’ve Already Been There!

Yes, this morning was so unbelievably beautiful, peaceful, and quiet, that I was actually off to town to get the groceries before I even had my second cup o’ joe!

And by “groceries,” I mostly mean all the food for the many, many cats.

But I did pop in at my usual market to get organic and Non-GMO “this and that” [read: snacks]. I didn’t really need much, because I don’t go through quite as much food in a week as my cats do.

But it was really a lovely drive today. It kinda took my breath away.

I try to take as many backroads as possible and avoid the freeway until I absolutely have to get on it for the last 5 miles into town. So my whole Being was just sort of rejoicing this morning while I drove — and I really needed it.

I am still just emotionally and mentally and physically wiped out, gang.

I made great progress on the bio/resume stuff for Sandra yesterday, though, and I hope to have it all done and ready to send back to her by later today.

I really, really, really need my plate to be clear for a little while so that I can get back to focusing on my own stuff — until we need to tackle Act Two of the play, which is any day now.

So here’s hoping today will be fruitful.

Okay. Well, Phil did not do his livestream last night. We’ll see if it pans out for tonight or not. (At 9PM Eastern, if it does work out.)

Oh! Here’s one interesting thing! At the market today, they had finally taken down all that bullet-proof glass garbage that they’d put up around all the cash registers back in 2020. So I guess the fake pandemic is officially over!!

All joking aside, that was such a nice feeling, gang.

So here we go. All signs pointing to a really nice day.

Okay! I’m going to “sort of” leave you with my breakfast-listening music from this morning.

I actually didn’t listen to music this morning. I watched a really, really, REALLY old episode of “Yogi Bear” — and it was primo Yogi!! From the 4th season, when Boo-Boo was already in the show, but it was still early enough in the 9-season run to actually be funny. And the animation was still great — for Hanna-Barbera, that is.

The episode I saw this morning, was when, thanks to his fairy godmother, everything Yogi touched turned into a picnic basket, including Boo-Boo and Ranger Smith…. it actually brought a smile or two to my face, and made the otherwise exhausting getting-out-of-bed business that much easier to live through.

So I leave you with the really really great Yogi Bear theme song (!!) –not the first one they made in the late 50s; the song from the mid-60s. So, slip back to yesteryear for a moment and enjoy!

Thanks for visiting, gang. I hope you have a terrific Tuesday, wherever you are in the world.

I love you guys. See ya!

If You Live Long Enough, Everything’s Amazing!

I did spend most of the day, yesterday, trying to put all my notes together for Sandra’s new “official” bio — we’re talking 12 pages of notes, over 50 movie credits, 5 TV series, about 25 theater credits, and an untold amount of appearances on episodic TV shows, and then her career as a cabaret singer in Washington DC before any of that other stuff started…

At one point, I had to call her to get background stuff sorted out — from the years before I had even met her. And she was a little fuzzy on the dates & details. She said, “I remember the White House Jazz on the Lawn series was during the Carter Administration…”

Uh-oh. That’s going pretty far back.

So I said, “If it’s okay with you, I think I’ll call Wayne and see what he remembers.”

Wayne, my ex-husband in NYC, has been close friends with Sandra for a really long time. I knew they became friends in DC, where Wayne began his professional acting career (in theater), and they wound up as roommates for a while in NYC in the early 80s. But I never knew any of the details about how they met or when.

Wow. So.

It turns out that Wayne has an incredible memory.

He recalled exactly when and where they met (March 1977, at a cabaret show). And each time they met after that (summer of ’78, and again in the summer of ’79), until they became actual friends — for life.

I won’t post all the details he shared with me, because it’s personal stuff about their private lives. But it just amazed me that Wayne remembered all that stuff. So many amazing details about Sandra. And that’s going back over 45 years.

(I will add this fact– in 1980, Wayne gave Sandra the final $100 she needed for the plane fare out to Colorado to get her re-assignment surgery. )

Sandra in the early days

The details Wayne shared with me covered that gap in my knowledge of Sandra. I know so much about her amazing life before she became successful, because all of that is in the play we’ve been working on together for 8 years.

So it was really cool for me to finally see just how she made that transition from who she’d been on the streets, to who she was when I met her. (When Wayne introduced me to Sandra, in 1992, he and I were living together, engaged to be married, and she lived in Toronto by then. She was in NYC, auditioning for the Broadway show, The Buddy Holly Story.) (She got the part.)

It just humanized everything for me — having Wayne’s side of the story.

I moved to NYC in 1980. Sandra moved there in 1982, and Wayne moved there in 1984. I realized yesterday, that we all share that cultural memory of what NYC was like in that era. And suddenly, my own perspective of life back then became part of the play about Sandra’s life.

Until that moment, I was always the “outside observer” to all the facts . It’s hard to explain. But Wayne’s memories changed all of that for me yesterday.

Manhattan in the 1980s

Anyway. It’s always great to chat on Sunday with Wayne!

He always makes a “Sunday dinner” for himself and his roommate, and he sends a photo out to a group on Instagram (always including the filthy ashtray and the lit cigarette, which is my favorite part!!!).

I was “officially” added to the group yesterday evening —

Lobster rolls, watermelon & feta salad, and cigarettes!

All right, gang. I gotta scoot! I need to get back to that bio.

And then, after that, Val in Brooklyn and I are going to get back to work on my zazzle “coffee mug” store and marilynsroombooks.com!!!

I hope you have a great Monday, wherever you are in the world.

Oh! Phil is supposed to do a livestream tonight at 9PM Eastern. Check his channel later to confirm!

Thanks for visiting.

I love you guys. See ya!

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Another great one from my Top 23+3 entire albums… from my Best of Nick Cave Playlist!!

“Brother, My Cup Is Empty”, from Henry’s Dream, Nick Cave & the Bad Seeds, 1992. Enjoy!

TGIS!!

Yes, Thank God It’s Sunday.

I sort of have the day off, if you don’t include spending the entire day either working on Sandra’s bio/resume, and/or working with her, later, over the phone…

At least I don’t have to drive 50 miles, and put on my happy/helpful face, and find the energy to genuinely be nice to people for 7-9 hours, while being utterly exhausted and thoroughly preoccupied, and trying really hard to convince myself to just hang on

When, when, when, right? When is that full disclosure coming? When will the big shift finally, well, shift?

It gets so hard to even get out of bed in the morning. The overwhelming fatigue from 3 years of it. Even though I don’t report on very much of it on the blog anymore, I haven’t left the movement; I still stay on top of the channels, the podcasts, the updates. The waiting is almost as exhausting as all the reporting was. (Almost.)

Not having to get out of bed and do anything but feed the cats at least helps me actually get out of bed.

So, yay for Sunday…

This morning, “Nancy Drew” posted this and I am definitely one of those people she is talking about. So, in the event that you are, too — here is what she said. It might help:

As far as “the job” goes, I really don’t have any complaints. It’s just the physical need to be present there, when there is so much other stuff that could use my attention, my creativity, my energy — that, plus all the driving– that’s what exhausts me.

One nice thing that has developed, strangely enough: quite a few of the customers from the health food store have discovered that I’m now working at the train station. (Different towns, but right next to each other.)

So not only do I make cocktails for people, I answer their questions about somewhat obscure health supplements or about which naturopaths or holistic doctors in the area are getting the best results for people and why, etc. And I’m still trying to help people (women, especially) reclaim their bodies & their minds after having gotten the MRNAs.

It is incredibly satisfying, when they come back to tell me, “Oh my god, Marilyn, that stuff is actually working.”

Obviously, I don’t mind doing that. All the information is still right there in my head. But I’d always rather be at home, working on 2 particular novels-in-progress — both books extremely transgressive — that, with any luck, will long outlive me and act as a further warning to humanity to never, ever, ever let this happen again.

And when I think of the enormity of what “this” has been , I just want to lay down and die. The evil that humanity is capable of, over and over and over– most of all, nowadays, to its children — and the amount of people, the world over, who are oblivious to it and who just think it’s normal now to doubt the existence of a higher creative force (often called “God”), without having a clue that this was done to them systematically…

Talk about opening that Nietzschean door to let evil just walk on in. (Jettison morality; kill God, and you get to allow everything with a shrug and just go about your business.)

Anyway. On an oddly similar note…

This was very interesting yesterday. If you study the history of the Bible and not just the theology of it, there are all sorts of other horrors to consider that come under the banner of “God.” (When people say that they follow the Bible, live their lives by it, I right away wonder: Wow. Have you ever actually read it??)

Anyway. Worth one hour of your time.

Ross K. Nichols – Sacrifice: A Dogma of Death (1 hr):

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Okay.

The laundry is done and I’m going to get back to work on sorting out Sandra’s incredible bio.

Enjoy your Sunday, wherever you are in the world!

Thanks for visiting.

I love you guys. See ya!

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Another great one from my Top 23+3 Entire Albums list of Nick Cave’s best!

“Train Long Suffering,” 1985. From the Nick Cave & the Bad Seeds album, The First Born is Dead. Enjoy!

“Train-Long Suffering”

Woo-wooooooo Woo!
In the name of pain!
(In the name of pain and suffering)
In the name of pain!
(In the name of pain and suffering)
There comes a train!
(There comes a train)
Yeah!
A long black train
(There comes a train)
Lord, a long black train

Woo-woo! Woo-woo!

Punched from the tunnel
(The tunnel of love is long and lonely)
Engines steaming like a fist
(A fistful of memories)
Into the jolly jaw of morning
(Yeah! O yeah!)
O baby it gets smashed!
(You know that it gets smashed)
O baby it gets smashed!
(You know that it gets smashed)

I kick every goddamn splinter
Into all the looking eyes in the world
Into all the laughing eyes
Of all the girls in the world
Oooooo-woooooh
She ain’t never comin back
She ain’t never comin back
She ain’t never comin back
She ain’t never comin back
And the name of the pain is…
And the name of the pain is…
And the name of the pain is…
And the name of the pain is…
The name of the pain is
A train long-suffering

On rails of pain
(On rails of pain and suffering)
There comes a train
(There comes a train long-suffering)
On rails of pain
(On rails of pain and suffering)
O baby blow its whistle in the rain

Woo-oo Woo! Woo-oo Woo!

Who’s the engine driver?
(The engine drivers over yonder)
His name is Memory
(His name is Memory)
O Memory is his name
(Woooooo-wo!)
Destination: Misery
(Pain and misery)
O pain and misery
(Pain and misery)
O pain and misery
Hey! Hey!
(Pain and misery)
Hey! That’s a sad lookin sack!
Oooh that’s a sad lookin sack!
And the name of the pain is…
And the name of the pain is…
Ooh the name of the pain is
A train long-suffering

There is a train!
(It’s got a name)
Yeah! It’s a train long-suffering
O Lord a train!
(A long black train)
Lord! Of pain and suffering
Each night so black
(O yeah! So black)
And in the darkness of my sack
I’m missing you baby
(I’m missing you)
And I just dunno what to do
(dunno what to do)
(Train long-suffering)
(Train long-suffering)
(Train long-suffering)
(Train long-suffering)
O she ain’t never comin back
O she ain’t never comin back
O she ain’t never comin back
O she ain’t never comin back
And the name of the pain is…
And the name of the pain is…
The name of the train is…
The name of the train is
Pain and suffering

c- 1985 Nick Cave

Unbelievably Great Day Out There!

Wow, I awoke to the most amazing weather that we’ve had so far this summer.

Just one of those awe-inspiring, great days.

No fog, no haze, ho humidity. Not too hot but warm enough to still have all the windows open. A very light breeze. The sun coming up in a perfectly blue sky. Birds singing, everywhere.

That alone made me decide to skip the L-Theanine this morning and just see how the day goes without it.

So, we shall see!

There really isn’t anything I wanted to post about today — except for Nick Cave’s Red Hand File from yesterday!!

He recently did a podcast with Louis Theroux, but it was on Sportify, which I no longer have so I haven’t heard the interview. But, apparently, it was a good interview because it seems a ton of new people discovered Nick Cave for the first time — from all over the world. And they wrote to him, via the Red Hand Files, wanting advice about how to get started listening to his 40+ years of recorded music…

He replied, in part:

So, I wonder if those fans could help us out by writing in with a 15 song playlist of the Best of Nick Cave, and perhaps you could add your age, just for interest’s sake.[…]”

You can read it in full here.

Mid Period Nick Cave

So, here is my list— and no way on Earth could I narrow it down to 15. That was just absolutely impossible. As it was, I had to include entire ALBUMS and count them as one song! And it still came to 23… (then I also added my favorite “official videos” at the end!!) (I forgot to add my age, though, which is soon to be 63!!!! I started listening to Nick Cave when I was 25. )

  • Tupelo
    Train Long Suffering
    Hard On for Love
    Up Jumped the Devil
    The Weeping Song
    The Ship Song
    The Witness Song
    Brother, My Cup is Empty
    Counts as “one” song:
    Do You Love Me? (Parts 1&2)
    Nobody’s Baby Now
    Crow Jane
    Into My Arms
    Lime Tree Arbor
    People Ain’t No Good
    Brompton Oratory
    Hallelujah
    Love Letter
    Fifteen Feet of Pure White Snow
    Counts as “one” song:
    All of Abattoir Blues/The Lyre of Orpheus, except for “Fable of the Brown Ape”
    Counts as “one” song:
    All of Disc 3 of B-Sides & Rarities, Vol. 1
    Go Tell the Women
    Counts as “one” song:
    All of Dig!!! Lazarus Dig!!!
    Balcony Man

    Favorite “Official Videos”:
    Stagger Lee
    Red Right Hand
    Fifteen Feet of Pure White Snow

If you are a Nick Cave fan, you can probably see that after Dig!!! Lazarus Dig!!!, I don’t have a whole lot of favorites from the newer albums (in fact, just one song). It isn’t that I don’t like those albums, it’s just that I don’t play the hell out of them, as I did (and still do) with most of the older records.

Anyway.

It was fun making that list. For about half an hour, it took my mind off of everything else I constantly think of, so that was nice.

Other than that —

Indy, the visiting cat who has been hiding in my closet for 2 and a half months, wanted me to pet him again today. And this time, he actually came out of the storage closet and into the great wide open of the guest room to make that happen.

It was just so beautiful, gang. What a sweet cat he is. Just like his brother…

They will be here for about 3 more weeks.

This is a photo of them that their “mom” sent me, when they were still kittens:

Indy, behind; Alan, in front.

And that’s it!!

Oh! Except for this photo from Johnny Depp on Instagram yesterday. He was visiting the Dylan Thomas birthplace:

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The Ten Commandments series with Ross K. Nichols and Jono continues with Thou Shalt Not Steal!

Theft – The Ten Words with Ross and Jono (49 mins):

If you’re curious, I have managed (quite easily, in fact) to not break 5 of the 10 Commandments throughout 63 years of living…

I won’t tell you which five I have broken (or maybe continue to break) quite as easily as the ones I didn’t break.

And to refresh your memory, here is an original list of the Biblical “10” Commandments (depending on how you write them out, there were 11):

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Okay, enjoy your Saturday, wherever you are in the world!! (I’m guessing that if you’re in the DC area and need to score some coke, the White House would be your best bet.)

And from “Nancy Drew” this morning:

“BREAKING-💥
A seasoned investigation team has been called in to solve the mystery of the cocaine found at the WH. Ruh roh.”

Okay.

Thanks for visiting!

I love you guys. See ya!

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Yes! This song made it to my Top 23 (plus 3 complete albums…)!! A truly amazing song. Enjoy!!

What I’d Rather be Doing!

Yes! Going on a picnic with somebody else’s kids, at a really quiet and beautiful lake!

And, yes, have a vintage station wagon, too.

But what I will be doing instead isn’t the worst thing in the world:

Take a 5-minute walk to the far right of this photo and you will be at the 200-year-old train station where I work in the evenings!

And I go inside, outside; inside, outside; inside, outside all evening long. So I get to look at a big bunch of beautiful trees and an incredible sky, wherein the stars come out in the evening and birds are always soaring. And right next door to the train station is a huge — and I mean huge — old barn, full of bails of hay. And just up the hill a tiny bit is the picturesque and perfectly maintained old graveyard where all the first settlers of the town are buried.

So it’s definitely not the worst place I’ve ever worked, or the worst view I’ve not only ever had but been an actual part of, when I’m doing all that “inside, outside; inside, outside” stuff.

So it isn’t terrible. I’m just effing tired. Beyond your ability to comprehend, most days.

But on a happy note!!

Indy, the brother of Alan the cat– the brother who hides in my storage closet all day and only comes out at night when I’m sleeping because he was horribly abused & abandoned in a dumpster as a tiny kitten so he distrusts people, to put it mildly; that Indy not only let me pet him today, but he actually came over to me and wanted to be petted.

It was amazing, gang. He’s been hiding in my storage closet for 2 and half months already.

What a wonderfully auspicious day!

Okay.

I wanted to share this, because this is the kind of thing that makes me so angry, gang. The Guardian used to believe in child sex trafficking. Now it’s just “Q-Anon paranoia”. (And there is no Q-Anon, for chrissakes. There is Q and there are anons…) Anyway.

From Bannon’s War Room:

“Enemy of the people

Enemy of the children”

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And there’s a 3-part article getting underway at Real Raw News that you might want to stay on top of. Those FEMA camps were real, gang. I started blogging about them back in 2012, during the O’Bozo Regime, and some of my readers thought I was some sort of “conspiracy theorist” nut.

JAG Convicts former FEMA Boss Brock Long, Part One.

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That’s kind of it.

Oh, I did get my phone service back on yesterday and that was a long and quite curious story, so I’ll leave it for another time. But I do believe the Deep State infrastructure of this great land of ours is truly on its way out.

So. That’s cool.

Have a great Friday, wherever you are in the world!!

Thanks for visiting.

I love you guys. See ya!

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Yes! I leave you with this!

You knew it was only a matter of time, and the time has arrived!

My breakfast-listening music from this morning. From the summer of 1984, the absolutely mega smash hit: Bruce Springsteen’s “Born in the U.S.A.”!

I used to play this album nonstop that summer, when I was still living in the railroad flat on East 12th Street in New York’s East Village.

When I met my birth dad, 5 years later in 1989, it turned out that this song personified him. It truly did. He’d been a Navy SEAL in Vietnam, and when we first began talking to each other on the phone — late at night for me, because there was a 3-hour difference in our time zones — I would lie in my bed in the dark, and listen, spellbound, to his stories about Vietnam; stories he had never told his wife (who was dead by this time) or his stepkids because he never wanted to upset them. But he wanted to confide in me, to tell me what it had been like for him over there.

I cannot adequately say how much that meant to me. I’d been searching for my birth father for about 17 years by the time he finally called me –seemingly out of the blue — one evening in the Spring of 1989, while I was sitting alone in my bedroom, watching a rerun of “The Andy Griffith Show.”

ME: “Hello?”

HIM: “Is this Marilyn?”

ME: “Yes.”

HIM: “Marilyn, my name’s Don May. I don’t really know how to say this but I think I’m your father.”

It is sufficient to say that, after that, my life changed forever.

This morning, at around 6am, while making breakfast for 11 cats and myself, this song came on the CD player in my kitchen and stopped me in my tracks. And I actually cried, just a wee little bit… I knew my birth dad for 10 difficult years, until he died from a cancer he got from being exposed to Agent Orange in Vietnam…

All right. Enjoy, gang.


“Born In The U.S.A.”

Born down in a dead man’s town
The first kick I took was when I hit the ground
You end up like a dog that’s been beat too much
‘Til you spend half your life just coverin’ up

Born in the U.S.A
I was born in the U.S.A
I was born in the U.S.A
Born in the U.S.A

Got in a little hometown jam
So they put a rifle in my hand
Sent me off to a foreign land
To go and kill the yellow man

Born in the U.S.A
I was born in the U.S.A
I was born in the U.S.A
I was born in the U.S.A

Come back home to the refinery
Hiring man says, “Son if it was up to me”
Went down to see my V.A. man
He said, “Son, don’t you understand”

I had a brother at Khe Sanh
Fighting off the Viet Cong
They’re still there, he’s all gone
He had a woman he loved in Saigon
I got a picture of him in her arms now

Down in the shadow of the penitentiary
Out by the gas fires of the refinery
I’m ten years burning down the road
Nowhere to run ain’t got nowhere to go

Born in the U.S.A
I was born in the U.S.A. now
Born in the U.S.A
I’m a long gone Daddy in the U.S.A. now
Born in the U.S.A
Born in the U.S.A
Born in the U.S.A
I’m a cool rockin’ Daddy in the U.S.A. now

c- 1982 Bruce Springsteen

So Interesting!

Well, my phone is still saying “SOS Only” and I’ve tried everything that you would normally do to get it to go away, but it remains.

This means that at some point, early yesterday evening, while sitting at my desk in my room, I somehow managed to get out of my carrier’s range of service for the first time in twelve years…

So curious — that it happened only moments after that military helicopter flew over my house. (If you don’t follow Q, none of this will register with you!) (Oh! And the Signal app did indeed work! One of my Q-following friends was able to text me and receive my texts last night.)

But anyway.

Not only can I not chat with or call my phone service provider right now, but most of their web site — the part where you can actually interact in some meaningful way — is suddenly missing. Although, oddly, the app on my phone is still working in a very interactive way… strange, right?

And this after they just sent me a new SIM card the other day. And my iPhone, except for that pesky “not being able to call or text anyone” part, is working just perfectly. [In fact, better and faster than it had been before the new SIM card arrived.]

Well, as a last resort, I emailed their service department. Perhaps they do things the old-fashioned way, like respond to email. We’ll see.

Just so curious, right, gang?? (Plus, my carrier provides mostly to politically active senior citizens across America who vote, and it’s been around for a couple of decades. Just curiouser and curiouser.)

Hmmmm….

So. On to other topics.

My life is beautiful.

I decided this (again) last night, as I awoke suddenly — the room was dark and very hot, all the windows were wide open, and the world outside my windows was so peaceful. My incredible Lasko oscillating tower fan was doing that great thing it does at the foot of my bed (i.e., makes sleeping extremely comfortable when the room is otherwise unbelievably hot). (And it also has an ion thingy, and a remote control, and a timer… I’ve had it for 5 years now and I hope it never dies.)

I looked next to me, and there was Al (Alan), the visiting cat. Blissed out and sound asleep in the breezy path of the Lasko fan. (He and his brother, Indy, are here now until August, because their home didn’t pass the electrical re-wiring inspection and the inspector can’t go out there again until the first week of August…)

Anyway. He is such a sweet cat, and he was so blissed out, sound asleep right next me. Huckleberry and Doris were stretched out, asleep on the floor, over by my desk. (They are cats — not fruit and/or people.)

And it wasn’t raining, so the roof wasn’t leaking. And all the bills are paid for now. And for that brief shining moment, every creep, everywhere was leaving me the fuck alone…

Everything was just so calm, and so peaceful and life has mostly been everything but that for the past 3 years. So it was just so beautiful, to wake up for even a moment and discover that life was perfect — wow.

And here it is — a brand new day. We’ll see how it goes. I’m back to the job again for the next 3 days. So that always kind of puts everything in my real world on hold.

It is what it is, for now, gang. The alternative is to not be here at all and I’m not ready for that yet.

If you are following any of the insane narratives in the MSM right now, good luck with that. They are absolutely off the charts insane. My best advice is to just ignore all of it and enjoy your life. (Especially that fucking bizarre cocaine at the White House ridiculousness.) (The fake Biden is not at the White House, neither is the fake or real Hunter. They’re just trying to slam you over the head with the idea that justice in the US is corrupt and they will find a way to arrest Trump for everything.) (I’m guessing that next they’ll find cocaine at Mar-A Lago and “arrest” him again, while Hunter walks free….) (Of course, we’re also hearing that Trump was never actually even “arrested”…)

Anyway!

MSM and me

Enjoy your Thursday, gang!

I hope it is peaceful and quiet, wherever you are in the world. (Which means you’re probably not in France…) (Although, Peitor, my friend and business partner who lives in Nice, France, texted me a lovely photo yesterday morning, from the beach. The South of France looks way different from the other photos coming out of France…)

Thanks for visiting.

I love you guys. See ya!

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Never A Dull Moment!! What a great record that was!!!

My listening-music from this morning! Rod Stewart’s cover of Dylan’s “Mama, You Been On My Mind.” From July of 1972!!!! Enjoy.

Holiday? What Holiday??

Sadly, yes, the holiday is over. And now it’s back to town again to get the groceries.

Luckily, it’s another really pretty day out there, gang. So it should be a nice drive. (Plus, I acquired this really happy family, and their dog, to go to town with me this time. Just to keep me constantly distracted. Nothing beats pandemonium in the car when you’re trying to drive!)

But, honestly, gang– I just want to stay here at my desk and work on Novitiate!! I made such great progress with it yesterday.

In fact, I’m starting to wonder if this is an actual novel and not a novella. We shall see.

However, the sooner I get to town and back, the sooner I can get back to work on the book. So I’m gonna scoot.

There is nothing to really report, anyway. The news couldn’t be more fake and/or more horrible when it isn’t fake, so I’ll just leave you to peruse it on your own.

And my life is quiet (for now) and really just sort of beautiful.

Enjoy your 5th of July, wherever you are in the world.

Thanks for visiting.

I love you guys. See ya!

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I leave you with this!

A friend from NYC spent his July 4th holiday last night in Asbury Park, NJ. This is a town with a famous amusement park on the Jersey Shore. Bruce Springsteen is from there. And his first album was titled, Greetings From Asbury Park, NJ. So, of course, my friend’s message said, “Greetings from Asbury Park, NJ!”

And in return, I sent him a link to the song below (from Springsteen’s second album, The Wild, The Innocent, and the E Street Shuffle.) I’m guessing my friend dropped everything to play the song on his phone, because when you’re on the boardwalk of a famous and noisy amusement park at the crowded seashore, and the waves are crashing and fireworks are filling the crazy sky, you really want to drop everything and listen to a song that is 50 years old (!!!!).

Anyway. I really love this song. “4th of July, Asbury Park (Sandy)”. And truth be told, when I went briefly to college, in the fall of 1978, my roommate and I embarked on a passionate little sex-a-thon (meaning that we were each in love with other girls who no longer loved us, so we had wild & very emotional sex with each other, for about a year, to distract us from all the unrequited love in our lives that year). And my roommate’s name was Sandy.

I never forget her. Especially when there are songs like this to remind me. And it still breaks my heart just a little bit. (She was tall and slender, with very long, wavy red hair, and she wore glasses and was studying Engineering and was really, really funny and incredibly smart.)

So here it is: “4th of July, Asbury Park (Sandy)”. 1973. Enjoy.

Have A Fantastic 4th!!

Yesterday evening, miracles began happening!

Around 7PM, the weather suddenly and totally shifted and it became just a glorious evening. Here is a photo I took from the upstairs window, looking out over my neighbors’ backyards. Nary so much as a hint of rain:

And if you’re interested in some of the history of Crazeysburg (and there actually is quite a lot, because back in olden times, people actually used to live here…)

Anyway. If you look closely between a couple of those houses, you’ll see a large boat. That boat is actually docked on what’s left of a very old canal. (There’s actually an alley and an old canal running diagonally between that white house and that boat.)

Anyway, Crazeysburg used to be one of the Ohio locks on the Erie Canal. I believe we were Lock #19 but I’m not positive. It would have looked a little like this (although this lock is one county over, Lock #18):

Lock #18, Ohio, Erie Canal

And while it was foggy when I awoke this morning at 6AM, the fog cleared pretty quickly and suddenly it was a really, really pretty morning!

And since God saw fit to give me a really nice 4th of July holiday, I, in turn, kept my promise to the world-at-large, and I got out of bed, threw on some shorts and a tee shirt, and I went outside and did some weeding!! Yay. Finally.

The story of my weeds is a frustrating one.

Since last summer, I have had a nice and very reliable 13-year-old neighbor boy who cuts my grass every week. He is not a “professional lawncare guy”, as I’ve had for every single summer since I moved away from NYC, but he was very reliable and he did cut my grass. He just never even so much as touched any of the weeds, so I would do that part myself.

This year, he asked if I wanted his friend to whack all my weeds for an additional $10 a week. And I was very happy to say, “Yes!”

Well, 2 months of paying the extra $10 a week — and my weeds were basically out of control. So I let the $10-a-week part of the two boys go.

But now my weeds were out of control and I had to deal with it. Yay.

Not my weeds but it did look a whole lot like this…

However, deal with it I finally did!

I don’t use any kind of chemicals on my yard, so I had to pull them all out by hand.

I got about 85% of it done this morning before it just became way too hot to stay out there another minute. But I was so happy to get that much done.

Not my yard, but, whatever…

And yesterday, after Sandra and I finished working on the play, and before I had my wonderful weekly chat with Val in Brooklyn, I came to a momentous decision: for the rest of my 4-day holiday (I’m on day #3 now), I am not doing any more “work” (i.e., stuff having to do with the play); I am only going to spend time writing Novitiate.

Valerie said yesterday: “If you want to work on your zazzle store tomorrow, or if you want help getting MarilynsRoomBooks.com setup, give me a call.”

And even though I usually drop everything to chat (or work over the phone) with Val, I said: “Val, I’m only working on Novitiate tomorrow, and for the rest of my days off!”

So I feel pretty excited here this morning, gang.

And with that, I am going to get started around here.

Have a wonderful 4th of July, if you live State-side. And if you don’t, then be like Keith — marry a famous American supermodel, move to Connecticut, raise a couple of really pretty blonde daughters, and celebrate the 4th that way!!!

From Keith’s Instagram page just now:

Have a terrific Tuesday, whatever you end up doing!!

Thanks for visiting.

I love you guys! See ya!

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Just some of my outside-pulling-the-weeds-bright-and-early music from this morning!

Bruce Springsteen & the E Street Band, oddly enough, also the summer of 1978! “The Promised Land” — and I still believe in it, gang! Enjoy!!!! (Yes, you gotta play it loud — otherwise you won’t hear it all the way outside on your front walk…)

“The Promised Land”

On a rattlesnake speedway in the Utah desert
I pick up my money and head back into town
Driving ‘cross the Waynesboro county line
I got the radio on and I’m just killing time
Working all day in my daddy’s garage
Driving all night chasing some mirage
Pretty soon little girl I’m gonna take charge

The dogs on Main Street howl ’cause they understand
If I could take one moment into my hands
Mister I ain’t a boy, no I’m a man
And I believe in a promised land

I’ve done my best to live the right way
I get up every morning and go to work each day
But your eyes go blind and your blood runs cold
Sometimes I feel so weak I just want to explode
Explode and tear this whole town apart
Take a knife and cut this pain from my heart
Find somebody itching for something to start

The dogs on Main Street howl ’cause they understand
If I could reach one moment into my hands
Mister I ain’t a boy, no I’m a man
And I believe in a promised land

Well there’s a dark cloud rising from the desert floor
I packed my bags and I’m heading straight into the storm
Gonna be a twister to blow everything down
That ain’t got the faith to stand its ground
Blow away the dreams that tear you apart
Blow away the dreams that break your heart
Blow away the lies that leave you nothing but lost and brokenhearted

The dogs on Main Street howl ’cause they understand
If I could take one moment into my hands
Mister I ain’t a boy, no I’m a man
And I believe in a promised land

c- 1978 Bruce Springsteen

More Rain!! Yay!!!

All right, gang.

It is day number 2 of my 4-day holiday for the 4th of July and it is starting off– yet again– quite auspiciously!!

Yes! Rain. A little more rain. And then even more rain!

Not that I mind rain, per se, but my roof is only just precariously remaining attached to my house…

Buckets everywhere downstairs. My ceiling is leaking like crazy.

And it’s a “holiday.”

(BTW in case you’re keeping count: USDA RD turned me down for a home improvement loan, HUD turned me down, Habitat for Humanity turned me down…)

Well, maybe this time, next year….

Miracles do happen, you know.

New Topic.

I had meant to post this wonderful photo yesterday morning but then I totally forgot!! And then Johnny Depp went and posted it to his Instagram page late yesterday afternoon!

He beat me to it, fair & square. But I regale you with it now!

And may I add this!! A vintage TV commercial from my wee bonny girlhood!! (“Johnny Smoke” Anti-Smoking Ad Campaign from the 1960s!!)

My girlhood, gang. You gotta love it. (I sure did.)

Okay.

I honestly have nothing more to post this morning.

I have to get ready to work with Sandra for a few hours. And then a chat with Valerie, after that. And laundry is in the middle of being halfway finished (try to do the math on that: in the middle of halfway…). So I gotta scoot!

I hope you have a great Monday, wherever you are in the world.

Thanks for visiting.

I love you guys. See ya!

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Making-the-bed-and-doing-laundry- music from this morning!! Enjoy!!