We haven’t had much snow to speak of, yet, but we now have the freezing temperatures of December upon us.

I haven’t mentioned on the blog that yet another cat (another black one) has set up housekeeping on my kitchen porch. She arrived out of nowhere, about 6 weeks ago, and has never left. So, the other day, I bought her an all-weather house, assembled it and set it out for her and so far, she seems extremely happy with the new digs and has not frozen to death.

KonTiki and the other black cat only show up at mealtimes now. They prefer hanging out in the barn during the cold weather. But, overall, it is just getting ridiculous, the amount of cats.

And the actual owners of the fosters that I’ve been fostering for about 8 months already — I’m guessing they are never coming back. The last I heard from them was in late September and the situations going on in their lives were absolutely not good. So on we go.

Anyway.

Really. there is no news. Nothing but psy-ops out there, gang. A lot of them are really GREAT psy-ops. (For instance, I love this new term: “Elon Anon”!! About Elon and all his Q references.) But still. Nothing to report that you can’t find everywhere else.

Phil is supposed to be streaming live tonight at 7PM Eastern time. We shall see! Check here later to confirm. It would be great to get some actual news, so we’ll see.

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This is going on!! I hope it comes to a city near me, during a time when I can afford to attend. The James Ossuary is included in the exhibit!!! And I would really love to see that before I die…

“Discovering the World of Jesus

ATLANTA EXHIBITION   |   DEC 6, 2024 – JAN  31, 2025

Step back 2,000 years into the world of Jesus

Relive the moments that shaped history now with hundreds of priceless artifacts from the Holy Land, used by those who walked alongside Jesus and witnessed His miracles.”

[Visit the link to see what’s included in the exhibit.]

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Matt Roeske – cymatics, tanning beds, and the 1860s (43 mins):

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Nigel Watson (Finland/UK) – THE NHS IS FULL OF ANTI VAXXERS (12 mins):

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Andy the Gabby Cabby – Starmers VIRAL Moment And Greg Wallace (2 mins):

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And in my own life–

Valerie completed her painting on Monday night! This is a great thing, gang. She really, really needs to be painting right now. I am so happy for her.

And as far as my memoir research goes– yesterday, I posted about re-discovering the songs I’d written in the 1970s. Especially songs I’d written in 1974-1975. This is when I was 14 and 15 years old and I cannot get over the quality of the lyrics.

I was lucky enough to have English teachers in Jr. High School who really supported my writing. I wasn’t just writing in a vacuum. However, at home, it was just me alone in my room with my guitar, writing TONS of songs, all the time. The world in my room was always a whole other planet and, for the most part, a safe haven from my seriously abusive adoptive mother.

Well, yesterday, I mentioned a song I re-discovered, that I’d written a couple weeks before I attempted suicide, at age 14. And I was blown away by it. Because it was all there, you know?

I didn’t understand back then the concept of “suicide” or trying to kill oneself. I was not “suicidal” but, by reading over the lyrics, I so obviously needed an escape route. So much awful shit was happening in my life back then. It was relentless. (Except that, one week before I’d written the song, I’d seen the Rolling Stones in concert for the first time, up in Cleveland.)

I typed up the lyrics yesterday so that I could send them to a friend overseas, and I reprint them here for you now.

“Daughter of What Ought to Be”
(June 21, 1975 – Marilyn Joy Barck)

She walks past the window
The world is stopped in time
Dreams of a name brightly
Written ‘cross the sky.

She waits for a minute
Then opens up her eyes
She sees that she’s late now
So out the door she flies.

Her keys in her pocket
She’s walking down the stairs
Outside the feeling of
Summer in the air.

I know, for a second,
She sadly looks around
But sees that it’s useless
And moves on without a sound.

CHORUS:
The daughter of what ought to be
Not what she’d like to be
And she will never be set free
Because she’s a slave to what they
Said she ought to be,
Though she’s not what she wants to be
And she will never be set free.

There’s a war in her soul
A fire in her heart
An idea in her mind
A restless urge to fly.

A smile paints her face
A glow enters her eyes
There’s a bomb in her hand
But, no, how could she
Let down all her friends?

(REPEAT CHORUS)
The daughter of what ought to be
Not what she’d like to be
And she will never be set free
Because she’s a slave to what they
Said she ought to be,
Though she’s not what she wants to be
And she will never be set free.

I will probably type up more of the songs and include them in some way in the memoir. We’ll see. For now, 99% of them are handwritten on notebook paper, which is also an interesting feeling for me.

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All right, that’s it for now. I gotta see my favorite 94-year-old Japanese man today! So I gotta scoot.

Enjoy your Wednesday, wherever you are in the world, gang.

Thanks for visiting.

I love you guys. See ya!

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Looking back on it, and without getting maudlin about it, this song really sort of nails it for me — who I was and how I felt back in 1974/75.

Peter & Gordon, “A World Without Love” 1964.

“A World Without Love”

Please lock me away
And don’t allow the day
Here inside, where I hide with my loneliness
I don’t care what they say
I won’t stay in a world without love

Birds sing out of tune
And rain clouds hide the moon
I’m okay, here I’ll stay with my loneliness
I don’t care what they say
I won’t stay in a world without love

So I wait and in a while
I will see my true love smile
She may come, I know not when
When she does, I’ll lose
So baby until then

Lock me away
And don’t allow the day
Here inside, where I hide with my loneliness
I don’t care what they say
I won’t stay in a world without love

So I wait and in a while
I will see my true love smile
She may come, I know not when
When she does, I’ll know
So baby until then

Lock me away
And don’t allow the day
Here inside, where I hide with my loneliness
I don’t care what they say
I won’t stay in a world without love

I don’t care what they say
I won’t stay in a world without love

c – 1964 – Lennon & McCartney

If you follow the alternative news channels, then you know that, beyond the “precipice of WWIII,” there is really just nothing to report. Although there is no lack of Q stuff right now.

In fact, here’s an interesting one. It appeared on a few channels this morning, but this is from News Treason Channel 17 (a re-post from X) :

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Phil did not do his livestream last night. He has switched it to Wednesday at 7PM Eastern time. Check here to confirm, though.

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I meant to post this yesterday from Absolute 1776, but I forgot. I donated to this young woman’s cause, so I am following it.

Elle Palmer is de-transitioning back to being a woman. Here is part of her current story, as posted to Absolute 1776:

“…Conservatives have not “weaponized” my story.

They just want other people to hear it, and they just want me to say what happened to me. They have put me on their show and simply said “tell us what happened.” There was no twisting of words, no lies, no propaganda. They simply wanted me to tell them the honest truth: why did I transition and detransition?

Now, I’m 25, and have realized the only reason my parents would feel threatened by conservatives is because the overwhelming majority of them will rightfully criticize my parents for letting me transition at 16 years old…

Next week I’m going to Washington, DC to rally and speak at the Supreme Court for the Skrmetti case that will set the precedent on whether or not minors will be allowed to transition for the entire country. […]”

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It is, of course, a topic I am very interested in, since I think it should be criminalized to let minors surgically transition. It is a HUGE choice to have to make and often times, even adults aren’t completely ready to make that decision. And having been friends with many people who had the surgery (as adults) and fully transitioned, I can tell you that most of them became very unhappy with that decision. In particular, the switching of hormones made them bonkers.

Which is one of the things that is so incredible about Sandra, though — and one of the reasons why “The Guide to being Fabulous” (our play) is so incredible. Sandra’s life has been incredible — but that doesn’t mean it has been easy at all. She surgically transitioned over 40 years ago. She’s in her 70s now and still dealing with all of it.

I can’t even imagine letting a teenager make that kind of life-altering choice.

On that note, though, here is a photo of Sandra years before she surgically transitioned:

And please come see our play when it opens Off-Broadway!! I will keep you posted.

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On a similar note…

Today is “Giving Tuesday” here in the US. And if you want to assist writers in the LGBTQ community, consider donating to Lambda Literary. They have been around a long time and they help under-served writers find their audiences.

They certainly helped my career as a writer many times over the decades.

You can donate HERE.

(And it might surprise you to know that many older LGBTQ creatives, such as myself, are Conservatives, and voted for Trump.)

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Okay, here’s what I have for today.

From James Tabor.

Is This the Earliest Source for the Teachings of Jesus? (45 mins):

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I keep forgetting to post this.

Ross K. Nichols – The Life and Times of Isaac (1 hr):

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Andy the Gabby Cabby (UK) – Starmer EXPOSED Dodgy Deals (3 mins):

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Sanity4Sweden – ARLA – Another one on my boycott list. My plan to get popular with old friends (6 mins):

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In my own world–

I did spend a good chunk of time yesterday getting all the Christmas stuff out of the storage closet. The kitchen and family room are decorated now, but I’m saving the tree for when I have another chunk of time. It takes a couple of hours to get that thing up and decorated.

In terms of my progress with the memoir, though, I went through something a bit traumatizing yesterday: I took out all the songs I wrote back in the 1970s. Or the ones that still exist. I wrote MANY that are no longer in my storage files.

But the songs I wrote in 1974 and 1975 specifically do still exist. Lyrics, only. In some cases, the chords are noted, but I no longer recall the melodies for most of them. Strangely (luckily), I always dated everything. So I know exactly when each song was written.

And quite a few of the songs were written while I was in the mental hospital.

And one song was written just a couple of weeks before I attempted suicide the first time — and those lyrics were decidedly eye-opening. I clearly knew, on some level, what was coming and I was sort of “liberated’ about it, or by the thought of it.

One thing I can say from reading over all those lyrics — I had an impressive vocabulary! Plus, my god, I wrote about topics that, well, honestly you’d easily think an adult had written those songs.

One heartbreaking but beautiful thing: On one of the songs that I’d written while in the mental hospital , that girl Kathy — the girl I posted about here on the blog a couple weeks ago. My first true girlfriend, in every sense of the word. She wrote at the top of the paper: “Hello, Maralyn! Kathy” (misspelled)

Wow. Nearly 50 years ago. It looks like maybe she was passing by while I was writing the song and she left me that little note. Well, now that note means the world to me.

Anyway.

That’s it for now.

Have a terrific Tuesday, wherever you are in the world.

Thanks for visiting.

I love you guys. See ya!

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I leave you with this song again, because, honestly, what else can I do? Enjoy, gang.

Wow, was it an intense month for me, caregiver-wise!

I enjoyed yesterday immensely — having the whole day off. I did not get much done, but that was the whole point.

Today, I’m back to working a double-shift, and then tomorrow, I’m out of here very early in the morning, so I won’t be posting to the blog.

Honestly, there is not much news — beyond the “precipice of WWIII” drama. But one really nice thing is that the alliance between Putin and Trump is becoming more and more out in the open, and the end of the Ukraine stuff is right around the corner.

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This was interesting.

From Mike King’s Anti-New York Times newsletter:

“The parallels between the Trump-Putin collaboration of today and the Abraham Lincoln-Tsar Aleksandr collaboration of about 160 years ago are spooky similar.

Even then, the Rothschild Cabal and their British partners were plotting to overthrow Russia’s Romanov Dynasty while splitting up the rising United States powerhouse via a regional Civil War (neither the US nor Russia having a central Judenbank at the time!).

In order to block the Confederate / Rothschild scheme to bring Great Britain and France into the war on the side of the Confederacy, Lincoln, through his Secretary of State, William Seward, arranged for the Russians to dock part of their Pacific fleet in San Francisco, and part of their European fleet in New York. Rothschild’s UK-France Axis (the NATO of its day) got the message and stayed out of the war. .

Unfortunately for Abe and Alex — whose own “bromance” was routinely mocked in the pro-Confederate British-Rothschild propaganda press — the Cabal eventually killed them both. […]”

[full article here]

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Andy the Gabby Cabby (UK) – That Didn’t End Well‼️ (3 mins):

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Nigel Watson (Finland/UK) – WHAT ARE THEY DOING TO OUR FOOD? SHOUD YOU BE WORRIED? (9 mins):

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Great!!

SGT Report interviews Matt Roeske – HIDDEN HISTORY & OUR GREAT AWAKENING — MATT, CULTIVATE ELEVATE (1 hr 15 mins):

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And that’s it for the news.

As for our Daily Feature–

What Would Keith Richards Do?

Today’s random selection came from, yes, Chapter Five: Daily Affirmations. And the topic is SELF-KNOWLEDGE.

On that topic, Keith says simply:

“You don’t know me. I know me.”

I’m guessing this will come in handy for all of us, at some future point! Perhaps, even today!!

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Today, is the one-year anniversary of the death of one of my favorite songwriters, Shane MacGowan. RIP, you incredible human being. Thanks for coming here when you did, and staying as long as you did.

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And that is it for today, gang.

Enjoy the holiday weekend, if you live State-side! Otherwise, just have a great Saturday, wherever you are in the world.

Thanks for visiting.

I love you guys. See ya!

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In never-before-seen archival footage Tom reflects on each member of The Heartbreakers. (2 mins):

If you live State-side, I hope you are having a great start to your Thanksgiving holiday.

Here, there is some happy news. I don’t have to work a double tomorrow!!!! My afternoon shift got cancelled. I will be home by 11:30am tomorrow (Thanksgiving) and I won’t have to be back out until mid-morning on Saturday.

I am really, really tired, gang. You just have no idea.

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Okay. Not much to post about today — a lot of people have started their holiday, it seems.

I’m guessing that everyone already saw the mainstream news (alleged cease-fire underway; all of Trump’s plans underway; the left is still having a meltdown over everything, etc. etc.)

If you saw yesterday that now Walmart is doing away with DEI, here’s a related piece:

From Amuse on X:

“Study Finds DEI and Anti-Racism Training Sow Divisiveness, Suspicion, and Hostility

While diversity, equity, and inclusion (DEI) have almost become a religion here in America, an unexpected backlash is quietly brewing. The backlash isn’t just among those who question the DEI’s underlying Marxist agenda; it’s an unintended consequence among those exposed to it. A recent series of studies unveils a troubling paradox: anti-racism trainings—celebrated as the antidote to prejudice—appear to sow the seeds of divisiveness, suspicion, and even outright hostility. Rather than illuminating the path toward a more inclusive society, these trainings encourage individuals to find bias where none exists, turning innocuous interactions into acts of imagined oppression.[…]”

[full article here]

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CHARLIE WARD DAILY NEWS WITH PAUL BROOKER WEDNESDAY 27TH NOVEMBER 2024 (12 mins):

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And that is it!

I am so ready for a little time to just collapse.

I am hoping that by next Thanksgiving, I will have a normal life again. And maybe even celebrate Thanksgiving! With other people!! For the first time in years!! It used to be my favorite holiday — back when my family was still alive and intact, and I cooked up a storm for everybody!!

I guess we’ll see. At the start of the New Year, I might start accepting applications for a new family…

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Enjoy your Wednesday, wherever you are in the world.

Thanks for visiting.

I love you guys. See ya!

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I leave you with this!

Ringo Starr, featuring Alison Kraus: “Thankful”. Enjoy, gang. It’s lovely.

There’s not much to add since I posted yesterday afternoon. But if you follow Q, then you know that the news out there is actually terrific!!

If you don’t follow Q, well, I don’t know what to say. But even the Charlie Ward daily update today flat out says there is not much left to report because everything is finally coming true (good stuff, that is).

CHARLIE WARD DAILY NEWS WITH PAUL BROOKER & DREW DEMI TUESDAY 26TH NOVEMBER 2024 (18 mins):

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If you’re late to the table and want to try to follow Q, this channel is a good one:

News Treason Channel 17 – from 2am today (FYI: pizza was a DS code word for pedophiles who mostly preferred little girls):

“Dan Scavino @ 1:16am:
“KARMA”.

Q-Drop 663 is the only drop that mentions “karma” that isn’t part of a hyperlink.

Q-Drop 663 just so happens to mention Klaus Eberwein.

Why does that matter?

Klaus Eberwein was a former Haitian Government Official whom was due to testify in a corruption hearing involving the Clinton Foundation.

Problem is, he was found dead of a “suicide” just days before the hearing.

As an added bonus: He owned a pizza restaurant, which I’m sure was just another coincidence.

Double bonus: Drop 116 makes mention of a “crumb dump incoming fast”.

For those new to Q: a “crumb dump” signified that Q was about to make a lot of drops with relevant information.”

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Sanity4Sweden – Red Cross say no to contaminated plasma (6 mins):

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Andy the Gabby Cabby (UK) – Starmers CRAZY New Laws 👀 (3 mins):

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Nigel Watson (Finland/UK) – HARRY LIME & THE CRIMINALS OF THE COVIET UNION (12 mins):

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And our Daily Feature.

What Would Keith Richards Do?

This one actually struck a really deep chord in me (no pun intended), especially as I work on my memoir and am constantly confronted by the fact that my adoptive mother was a very destructive and abusive person and that it destroyed our whole family. I was not raised in a spirit of love, that is for sure.

Anyone raised in an abusive home knows what I’m talking about.

What I wanted most was a loving family and in my imaginary world in my head (in terms of my mental illness), I had an enormous, loving family that I would always retreat to when my “real life” got unbearable, which was almost all the time. And interestingly enough, in that imaginary world, there was no mother at all, only a father — and about 18 children. I’m serious.

Anyway.

The random selection comes from Chapter Five: Daily Affirmations. And the topic is FAMILY.

If you are familiar with Keith’s life at all, you know that he had a rocky relationship with Anita Pallenberg, but which gave him 3 children, one of whom died as an infant. But that he has an incredibly beautiful family life with Patti Hansen, whom he’s been married to for almost 41 years. Keith has a total of 5 children and 5 grandchildren (with another on the way).

Keith’s reply to the topic of family:

“The only way you can be like me is to have a good family.”

Also:

“Sometimes the only thing you’ve got to hang on to is family.”

And I’ll leave it at that!

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Okay. I want to get to work on the memoir here before I have to take off and work another double-shift!

But once again, I have to say, that I just love the patients I have right now. I’m with my favorite 94-year-old Japanese man every day this week (since Saturday, actually) because his private nurse is on vacation. He is the most amazing man! We talk about his life for hours. He has had the most incredible life. And while we talk, he cries, he laughs, he takes my hand and holds it tight. Sometimes he kisses the back of my hand and says; “Thank you so much for being here. Thank you for all of this.” And most of the time now he remembers my name.

And — what can I say, gang? It is the most blessed experience.

Okay. Have a terrific Tuesday, wherever you are in the world!

Thanks for visiting.

I love you guys. See ya!

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I leave you with this again! Just because I’ve been playing it constantly. Enjoy, gang. Life is so beautiful.