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What Is It About June??

Or perhaps I should ask, “What is it about September?”

Is it a particularly frisky month? Because I know more people who have birthdays in June than in any other month of the year.

Well, I don’t actually “know” all of these people — but still.

A very happy birthday today to Wayne Lewis!! A previous husband and a dear friend!

These photos are kind of how I still think of Wayne — in the kitchen! We were both really good cooks and had dinner parties all the time. He’s in the kitchen in our apartment on West End Avenue here, preparing for a Christmas dinner party, early 90s (photos by moi!):

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And a very happy 78th birthday to Ronnie Wood!!

Officially, the first song he played on with the Rolling Stones was in 1974, “It’s Only Rock & Roll (But I Like It)”. And his first live song with them was on May 1st, 1975, “Brown Sugar.”

But here’s one of my favorite Ronnie Wood songs — with Rod Stewart and The Faces. (I think I posted this song here on his birthday last year…)

It is so hard to believe that I was listening to this stuff back in 1973 (and earlier)… I was still just a girl. But I didn’t feel as young as I was. Anyway, back then, music was my life.

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Okay!

I am moving really slow here today. I think I’m actually depressed. I am just ridiculously overworked these days. And I can’t keep the house clean, and haven’t even planted my summer flowers yet that I put out on my various porches every year. And that alone really depresses me.

I feel like I don’t have time to stop and focus, or enjoy my own life because of all these caregiver jobs that take so much out of me. And this is, allegedly, only part-time!! Because I’m semi-retired!! Whatever the fuck that means. Anyway.

It won’t last forever, but for now, I need the work.

Peitor’s expecting me to send him over the revisions of Acts 1, 2 and 3 of Episode 2 of the TV project by noon, and I still have about 15 more pages to edit, so I better scoot.

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But first!

I think I should have an entire category called “My absolute favorite Nick Cave photo of all time” because I don’t think I can narrow it down to just one photo–

So here’s another “absolute favorite of all time”!

Okay, enjoy your Sunday, wherever you are in the world.

Thanks for visiting.

I love you guys. See ya!

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Meanwhile…

Our new Daily Feature continues!

Gifts Keith Richards gave me when I was a wee bonny girl!!

Wherein I regale you with “songs Keith loved, that he would talk about in an interview in some magazine, and then I’d go out and try to find the record and then buy it with my babysitting money, and then I’d listen to it alone in my intense little room, playing it on the portable record player that my dad bought me, and the song would change my life. “

Today’s selection!! 

Jimmy Reed, “I Ain’t Got You”, 1960. Enjoy, gang!

“I Ain’t Got You”

I got a Eldorado Cadillac
Wit’s a spare tire on the back
I got the charge account at Goldblatt
But I ain’t got you

I got a tavern and a package store
Don’t matter where I go
You keep the ring in my nose
But I ain’t got you

I got a tavern an’a package store
I hit the numbers, four-forty four
I got a mojo and don’t you know?
I’m all dressed up, no place to go

I got a-women to the right of me
I got a-women to the left of me
I got a-womens all around me
But I ain’t got you

I got a-women on the right of me
I got a-women to the left of me
I got a-women all around me
But I ain’t got you
But I ain’t got you
But I ain’t got you
But I ain’t got you

c – 1960 – Calvin Carter

The Joy Doesn’t Quit, Gang!

Just keep a bunch of 7-week-old kittens closed up in your bedroom/office 24/7, and see what it does to the joy factor in your living space!

Although a couple of them are really, really wanting to go out into the hallway now, so I have to be careful when I open the door.

And a couple of the fully grown cats out in the hallway really, really want to know what the heck is going on in here.

But since Mommy (Little Blackie) still ferociously attacks all the other cats in the house (she got out once), I’m not ready to start introducing everyone yet.

But meanwhile, the frolicking in here never stops. (I can’t even get a decent photo anymore because they don’t stay still long enough — unless, for a nano second, they’re sleeping.)

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There’s not much to post about today. I spent yesterday afternoon/evening, working on pages that Peitor had sent over.

Although I did manage to get some yoga done, too. Yay. And it was during that nano second when all the kittens were asleep, so I was actually able to focus on the yoga (and relax) and not on trying to not step on any kittens. So, double yay.

Oh, and the interesting thing that happened yesterday — my favorite 94-year-old Japanese man did NOT want to go out for Japanese food.

This is a first, gang. He always wants to go out for lunch. But he said he just wasn’t up to going anywhere, which alarmed me a little bit. But we still had a great afternoon, chatting, laughing, uncovering the meaning of vodka martinis Life…

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Overall, I’m just kind of a little overwhelmed here. Mostly with stuff pertaining to the TV series project.

Mostly because, every time I find a moment to sit at my desk and get some edits done to Episode 2, Peitor sends over more edits to the edits-in-progress. So I have to stop everything and start over.

I don’t think he has a “pause” button… if he does, it’s broken.

But anyway. I am trying to find a way to balance everything. So far, I’m feeling kind of lucky that at least I’m still waking up in the morning. So we’ll start with that — Square One.

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Okay, here’s this!

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And here’s this!

A fave photo from my desktop stash, as we await the passage of 13 more days before the next Nick Cave tour begins (buy tickets here! I think there are maybe 4 tickets left…)

Blixa and Nick from yesteryear:

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And that’s it for today. I gotta scoot and — yes — call the Honda dealership!

They texted me yesterday to say they had discovered that I need 2 different filters and a windshield wiper blade replaced. I don’t know about you, but I’m thinkin’ that sounds like a 15-minute fix, right???

Here’s hoping it won’t take another 3 fucking hours. I like the guys at the Honda dealership but, like, not THAT much.

But we shall see. (My car is leased, so anything that needs fixing, I gotta fix. That way, when I trade it in for a new lease, the value remains really high. And the payments on the next lease go really low…)

Meanwhile, enjoy your Thursday, wherever you are in the world.

Thanks for visiting.

I love you guys. See ya!

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Our new Daily Feature continues!

Gifts Keith Richards gave me when I was a wee bonny girl!!

Wherein I regale you with “songs Keith loved, that he would talk about in an interview in some magazine, and then I’d go out and try to find the record and then buy it with my babysitting money, and then I’d listen to it alone in my intense little room, playing it on the portable record player that my dad bought me, and the song would change my life. “

Today’s selection!!

Robert Johnson, “I Believe I’ll Dust My Broom”, 1937. Enjoy, gang!!

“I Believe I’ll Dust My Broom”

I’m gointa get up in the mornin
I believe I’ll dust my broom
I’m gointa get up in the mornin
I believe I’ll dust my broom
Girlfriend the black man you’ve been lovin
Girlfriend can get my room

I’m gonna write a letter
Telephone every town I know
I’m gonna write a letter
Telephone every town I know
If I can’t find her in West Helena
She must be in East Monroe I know

I don’t want no woman
Wants every downtown man she meets
I don’t want no woman
Wants every downtown man she meets
She’s a no good dooney
They shouldn’t allow her on the street

I believe, I believe I’ll go back home
I believe, I believe I’ll go back home
You can mistreat me here babe,
But you can’t when I’m back home

And I’m gettin up in the mornin
I believe I’ll dust my broom
I’m gettin up in the mornin
I believe I’ll dust my broom
Girlfriend the black man you been lovin
Girlfriend can get my room

I’m gonna call up Chiney
See is my good girl over there
I’m gonna call up China
See is my good girl over there
I can’t find her on Phillipine’s island
She must be in Ethiopia somewhere

c – 1937 – Robert Leroy Johnson

Good Morning, Good Morning!!

Yes, I am up! I’m outta bed!!

And — NO!! — it wasn’t anywhere near 4AM.

It’s seems like 5AM is the best I can really do right now. So why fight it??

Okay, gang. Things just get better and better. Even though I had to wait 3 HOURS (!!) at the Honda dealership after my shift yesterday, so basically my entire day was a washout…

I did get a very quick update yesterday from the small press that has agreed to read my unpublished novel from 26 years ago, The Curse of Our Profound Disorder, with an eye toward perhaps publishing it — and she said that just after having read the opening sentence of the novel, she was VERY interested. [Her caps, not mine.]

Yay!

This still doesn’t mean a “book deal” — she’ll have to read the whole thing. But it made me feel fantastic, gang. (When her email came through, I was up to my eyeballs, trying to find out why the nurse hadn’t come to see my client last FRIDAY to see if she had a UTI. And we needed someone to come out and see her ASAP. The last time she had a UTI, she was in rehab for over a month.) Anyway. Many phone calls. Trying to be polite. Not wanting to bite anyone’s head off because I know everyone, including the quite comely but rapidly aging moi, is so fucking busy right now…

Anyway. The mobile urgent care was on its way as I was clocking out.

So that email just made me feel so happy, gang.

And then, while sitting for an eternity in the Honda waiting room… the Agency texted me and said that the wife of my client who’s in the facility with deep cognitive impairment issues, can no longer afford us so he is no longer on my schedule, at all.

Even though it’s a difficult situation for his family, and I really like him, that news suddenly and quite wonderfully freed up FIVE HOURS of my schedule, indefinitely!!! Yay!!

Because I of course received many many WhatsApp texts from Peitor yesterday, needing me to look over many many edits on Episode 2. (And I did finally get to sit down at my desk last night, after dinner. And the edits were GREAT.)

And I’ve decided to start illegally acquiring Adderall in order to get all of this stuff — revise a novel, revise a play for Off-Broadway, write a television series — DONE! Yay!

[I am, of course, totally kidding. Who the fuck has time to be addicted to Adderall right now??]

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Okay!!

Here’s this!!

Yesterday, I discovered a playlist of ALL my favorite songs from 2024!! So I thought, hmmm, and I hit the play button and drove off to town.

Wow, so bittersweet. So amazing. Most of the songs were the songs I’d listen to while driving back & forth to see my dad last year, during the final year of his life.

When THIS song came on, my heart hit the moon!! I immediately remembered how much I not only LOVE the sound of Johnny Depp’s voice, but this song, specifically, means so much to me. I loved Jim Carroll so much. He was such a big part of NYC for me in the 1980s.

The Hollywood Vampires’ version of “People Who Died”. (Song written by Jim Carroll, who, as fate would have it, died.)

I don’t really know what Johnny Depp is up to. The last I saw on Instagram was this (not smoking, but at least drinking…so, yay!):

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And here’s this!!

Just coz I’m not sure how he thinks we’re supposed to wait 14 more days before he goes on tour again for 912 months… (most shows are sold out already, but buy tickets here!!) Another personal fave photo from my desktop stash!!

And speaking of Nick Cave…

He sent out a quick Red Hand File yesterday, wherein he revealed that he and I have only ONE movie in common on the “favorites” list. He chose Living In Oblivion as the “movie that makes him laugh”.

[I love this movie, gang. I have seen it I don’t know how many times!!}

Anyway. You can read Nick’s favorite films in various categories HERE.

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From James Tabor — A Young Christian Believer Asks Dr Tabor Four Questions about Paul (47 mins):

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And that’s it! I gotta scoot and drive 30 miles to see my favorite 94-year-old Japanese man!! We’ll be going out for either sashimi and sake, or sushi and sake today. We’ll see what he decides.

Have a wonder-filled Wednesday, wherever you are in the world!

Thanks for visiting.

I love you guys. See ya!

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Okay!

Our new Daily Feature continues!

Gifts Keith Richards gave me when I was a wee bonny girl!!

Wherein I regale you with “songs Keith loved, that he would talk about in an interview in some magazine, and then I’d go out and try to find the record and then buy it with my babysitting money, and then I’d listen to it alone in my intense little room, playing it on the portable record player that my dad bought me, and the song would change my life. “

Today’s selection!!

Hank Williams, “Honky Tonk Blues”, 1952. Enjoy, gang!!

“Honky Tonk Blues”

Well I left my home down on the rural route
I told my Pa I’m going steppin out and get the
Honky tonk blues,
Yeah the honky tonk blues
Well Lord I got ’em,
I got the ho-on-ky tonk blues.

Well I went to a dance and I wore out my shoes
Woke up this mornin wishin I could lose
Them jumpin honky tonk blues,
Yeah the honky tonk blues
Well Lord I got ’em,
I got the ho-on-ky tonk blues.

Well I stopped into every place in town
This city life has really got me down
I got the honky tonk blues,
Yeah the honky tonk blues
Well Lord I got em,
got the ho-on-ky tonk blues.

I’m gonna tuck my worries underneath my arm
And scat right back to my Pappy’s farm
And leave these honky tonk blues,
Yeah the honky tonk blues
Well Lord I got ’em,
I got the ho-on-ky tonk blues.

c – 1952 – Henry B. Glover, Shep Sheppard, Bill Doggett, Billy (usa) Butler, Clifford Scott

It’s Gonna be that Kind of Day!

Yes, just when I thought today was going to be an easy one.

To town and back. One client. A really sweet lady who is (generally) easy to take care of. Get home in the early afternoon, get some more work done at my desk on Ep. 2 for the TV series project. Do some yoga. Have a quiet dinner in the kitchen, sitting in front of one of my all-time favorite shows (I only watch the old ones, with John Nettle in them):

Then off to bed, to study French, then Chinese, then read a little more from James Tabor’s great new (re-issued) book:

Then…

Alas.

Coming home from my evening client last night, one of those things you never enjoy seeing — a dashboard warning light pops up on the beloved Honda Civic Sport while tootling along on the freeway.

So, today is all about driving to my client’s house in town.

Dashing over to the mall to pop in at Rural King then at Aldi’s, to do some quick grocery shopping, since I will suddenly be over there. Then over to the Honda dealership, to get the oil changed, the tires checked and rotated. And SIT in the (albeit, really nice) Honda waiting room….forever.

Then drive home in rush hour traffic.

Maybe get a TINY bit of work done on the TV script — after dinner.

(I’m not going to mention any of this to Peitor because he’s already freaked out by my intensely overloaded schedule this week.) (He’s over in his part of the world, working like a crazy person on Ep. 2 because so much stuff is happening right now regarding our TV Pilot script.) (Whereas, I’m just a crazy person.)

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Okay!

I just want to mention a little bit about that client last evening, that I had posted about yesterday.

It went very well — partly because his daughter popped in to see him right when I got there and her visit left him in really good spirits. Plus, it was a gorgeous afternoon, so I was able to take him out into the garden for a while before dinner, and he loved being in the sun and looking at all the flowers.

I was working very hard to keep him in good spirits after dinner. Trying to avoid anything that could trigger him. I tried to keep the “conversations” going, in whatever direction they veered off to, since I generally have no clue what he’s talking about at any given moment.

And when my replacement came, and I was getting ready to go home, I went over to say goodbye to him, and in a really quiet voice (so quiet that I had to lean in really close to hear him), he said; “Why are you trying to save me?”

Wow.

Of course, I have no clue if he even knew he had said it. But, wow.

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Okay. So here are a couple of Nick Cave photos from my own really huge, non-Instagram stash!!

And this is a photo from 5 or 6 years ago, when Kara had bought me this really cute photo holder, specifically to put this photo in, because it’s probably my favorite Nick Cave photo from yesteryear:

I have to say, Kara always buys me the best gifts!!

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All righty.

I gotta scoot and get this insane day underway.

Have a terrific Tuesday, wherever you are in the world.

Thanks for visiting.

I love you guys. See ya!

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Okay!

I think I’m starting a new daily feature:

Gifts Keith Richards gave me when I was a wee bonny girl!!

I am, of course, referring to songs Keith loved, that he would talk about in an interview in some magazine, and then I’d go out and try to find the record and then buy it with my babysitting money, and then I’d listen to it alone in my intense little room, playing it on the portable record player that my dad bought me, and the song would change my life. Here’s one!!

Merle Haggard’s “Sing Me Back Home”. 1967. Enjoy, gang.

“Sing Me Back Home”

The warden led a prisoner down the hallway to his doom
I stood up to say good-bye like all the rest
And I heard him tell the warden just before he reached my cell
“Let my guitar playing friend do my request.” (Let him…)

Sing me back home with a song I used to hear
Make my old memories come alive
Take me away and turn back the years
Sing Me Back Home before I die

I recall last Sunday morning a choir from off the street
Came in to sing a few old gospel songs
And I heard him tell the singers “There’s a song my mama sang
Could I hear it once before you move along?”

Sing me back home with a song I used to hear
Make my old memories come alive
Take me away and turn back the years
Sing Me Back Home before I die

Sing Me Back Home before I die

c- 1967 Merle Haggard

Happy Memorial Day!

If you live State-side, I hope you enjoy your Memorial Day in whatever way you celebrate!

Around here, people get in their campers and head out to the hills, lakes, peaceful places.

It’s not very warm today, but it’s really sunny. So that helps.

Beautiful Ohio!

If you’re a long-time reader of this lofty blog, you no doubt recall that most of the men in my family — going back to the Revolutionary War, served in the military and usually served in one war or another.

If I wasn’t working today (a double, no less), I would at least make a trip to the local cemetery. But it’s not happening today.

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Yes!

Yesterday was my “day off”! And I got a ton of writing done. Mostly on the play, for Sandra to go over. Then some work on the TV series. Obviously, there is still a ton of work yet to do, but I was able to fall asleep last night knowing that I had gotten a lot accomplished.

Today, I won’t be writing. Today, I’m focusing on just being present. And compassionate. And emotionally flexible. The client I have later today is the one who is in the facility and rapidly declining from extreme cognitive impairment. It can get extremely challenging. (He can get combative, physical, abusive. And you never know when he will suddenly get triggered and slip into that.)

The agency told me the other day that I could remove that client from my schedule if I wanted to, but I don’t want to. He’s the one that, when I first met him, I had the profound impression that I recognized him, that I knew him from somewhere, even though I didn’t. And then HE responded, upon meeting me, that he recognized me, too. Even though he is beyond being able to recognize people from his own family.

I feel that there is a higher connection there, though, you know? That we must recognize each other for some higher reason. This deterioration has got to be so frustrating, scary, confusing for him on some deep level. I don’t want to just abandon him. I don’t want to just walk away. I want to at least be present for him on this final path of his journey.

We’ll see how it goes.

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Also, yesterday–

Perhaps you recall that, several weeks ago, the little girls from next door wanted to sell me a bunch of drooping dandelions and dead flowers because they needed $5 to buy their mom a cake…

Well, they now come around sort of “weekly”. And other kids have joined the little group. They can’t be more than 7 or 8 years old. It’s hard to say. But they come to my kitchen door around dinner time on Sundays, and they have their usual bouquet of weeds….

But now I don’t take the bouquet, I just ask them how much money they need and what they need it for.

They usually ask for $2 (even if it’s all in quarters!!). And they need it for candy, or nail polish, etc. etc.

I happily give it to them and quietly hope that they aren’t buying drugs or anything (although the pot can’t call the kettle black on that score — but I was a little older than 7 or 8 when that started going on in my life!!) (I was 12.).

At this point, I’m sure their parents have no clue that they’re getting money from me all the time now. (And I have no clue, now, who some of their parents even are.) And since I never had children of my own, I feel like this is God’s way of letting me experience giving kids their weekly allowance money!! It’s too funny.

I am curious, though, where it’s going to lead, or end… And I’m guessing I’m getting a reputation in the village for not only being a crazy cat lady, but also for being someone who’ll just give you money — all you have to do is ask!

(I can’t help it, though. I absolutely love kids.)

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Okay, here’s this!

I love this photo!! The Rolling Stones!! They did “mod” like nobody’s business!

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And here’s one of the culprits in action!!

Bettie Jo shredding the chenille bedspread just now!! (This goes on ALL DAY and ALL NIGHT!)

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And here’s this!!!

Two more great random photos of Nick Cave from Instagram. (It’s hard to just sit here and wait for the next tour to start (June 10th — Buy tickets here!!), so I guess I’ll just keep posting anyway.)

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And that’s it! I gotta scoot!!

Enjoy your Monday/Memorial Day, wherever you are in the world!!

Thanks for visiting.

I love you guys. See ya!

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Wow!

Look what’s queued up on my playlist for driving to town!!

I loved this album when it first came out!! And when I put this record on my record player for the first time (a weekday morning, I was 17 and in high school), and when THIS SONG came on for the first time, everything in my entire being soared to the stratosphere!!

I immediately called the attendance office at the school, pretended to be my mother (who was at work) and called myself in sick for the day. I had to listen to this song repeatedly!! Everything else in the world stopped.

“Miracle Man,” by Elvis Costello. From My Aim Is True, 1977. Enjoy, gang!

“Miracle Man”

You never asked me what I wanted. You only asked me why.
I never thought that so much trouble was restin’ on my reply,
I could say it was the nights when I was lonely
and you were the only one who’d come.
I could tell you that I like your sensitivity,
when you know it’s the way that you walk.

[Chorus]:
Why do you have to say that there’s always someone
who can do it better than I can?
But don’t you think that I know that walking on the water
won’t make me a miracle man?

Baby’s gotta have the things she wants.
You know she’s gotta have the things she loves.
She’s got a ten-inch bamboo cigarette holder
and her black patent leather gloves.
And I’m doing everything just tryin’ to please her,
even crawling around on all fours.
Oh, I thought by now that it was gonna be easy,
but she still seems to want for more.

[Chorus]

I hear they’re givin’ you a bad reputation
just because you’ve never been denied.
You try to say you’ve done it all before.
Baby, you know that you just get tired.
Yet everybody loves you so much, girl.
I just don’t know how you stand the strain.
Oh, I, I’m the one who’s here tonight,
and I don’t wanna do it all in vain.

[Chorus]

c – 1977- Elvis Costello

Getting TOO glamorous around here, gang!

Honestly, some day soon — I hope — I will be able to post to the blog all the details of everything that is just getting off-the-charts amazing around here! The news from Peitor yesterday about our TV project blew my mind!

And I’m really having to start to face the fact that I might not have a free moment of downtime for the next three years

But in the meantime, all I can say is that I need WAY MORE than one day off a week… sadly, that’s all I’m getting this week, anyway.

So, I do have today off but today is all about typing my wee bonny fingers off.

Still, I don’t have to leave the house. Don’t have to drive to town. And it’s a beautiful holiday weekend around here, so I’ll take all the little perks I can get today.

And even though tomorrow is a national holiday, and even though I usually have Mondays off–

ME (thinking): No need to specifically request to have the holiday off, because Monday is my day off anyway.

AGENCY: “She didn’t specifically request to have the holiday off, like EVERYBODY ELSE did, so let’s just dump everybody else’s shifts on to her!”

Alas, too late…

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So, yes, the week ahead of me is going to be intense. But I am trying to find ways to just keep on moving forward.

Work, write. Work, write. Work, write. Repeat.

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Okay.

From James Tabor — and even though I am a member of his special research group, I was not on the zoom call yesterday because:

A. I had to work

B. I had to work

C. I had to work

D. All of the above

[The correct answer is, of course, B. I had to work.}

Is the Jesus Story Modeled after a Typical Hellenistic Divine Man Matrix (46 mins):

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And as you can see, I really have nothing serious to post about today!! And I probably should get focused on the revisions of the play that Sandra has been waiting on for, I don’t know, something like 5 days.

Then, of course, back to Episode 2 of the TV series project.

And if I am at all coherent this evening (I’m hoping I will be!!), I’m planning to re-watch this for the first time in about 40 years!! I just bought it on Amazon Prime.

I first saw this film in high school, when I was about 16 (less than a year after I was released from the mental hospital, which was probably the most precarious year of my existence). I was taking a class in filmmaking and we were studying the French New Wave. This film blew me away, gang, and sort of changed my life forever. After this, I saw every film Truffaut made. I have seen this film numerous times, but it’s been a long time since I last saw it.

The 400 Blows (1959)

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And on that note, I better scoot!! The evening will be here before we know it!!

Enjoy your Sunday, wherever you are in the world.

Thanks for visiting.

I love you guys. See ya!

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I leave you with this!!

If you recall, not too long ago, I played this song for my favorite 94-year-old Japanese man. He had never heard it before and he loved it. Now, he asks me to play it at least once every time we are together.

Yesterday was no different. I played it for him on my phone, while we sat out on his back deck, surrounded by hundreds of green trees, flowers, many birds, some squirrels & chipmunks, a deer, and a big beautiful blue sky.

Louis Armstrong, “What A Wonderful World”. Enjoy, gang.

“I wonder how that great new schedule is working out for her??”

Yessirree, gang!!

That great new schedule I have around here — the one that’s going to give me an extra hour at my desk on those mornings (like, TODAY, for instance) when I have to drive to town and go see a client but I have WAY TOO MUCH script-writing to get to around here….

YES!! So far it’s looking a whole lot like the old schedule.

Hmmm….

I am trying really hard to get out of bed and get started around here at something that resembles being within the realm of 4AM…

However.

I’m getting there. I’m at least lying there at about 4:07AM, eyes open, telling myself, “Marilyn, you gotta get outta bed. Now. People the world over need to see some PAGES.”

But the peculiar thing about my bed, which perhaps I have never mentioned here on the blog before, is that it is REALLY REALLY comfortable. It’s super soft and cozy, with bunches of fluffy pillows, and the all-cotton Portuguese sheets are, like, a 3,924-thread count…

My, no, SOMEONE’S actual bed…

This morning, though, I was really tired because I’d had some incredibly cute kittens racing around all over me last night — at several different times during the night.

But eventually I got out of bed. At my usual 5:09AM.

But what are you gonna do? Right? You just keep trying…

And the texts from Sandra and Peitor keep arriving.

At least when Sandra texts me, it’s just a text. When Peitor texts me, it’s on WhatsApp and the moment I’ve read it he can see that I’ve read it…

Meaning that a response is needed. In a reasonable time-frame. The old excuses don’t work anymore–

Sorry!! Too drunk to reply right now!!

Anyway!!

I confess. This morning is not really gonna happen. And after I see my favorite 94-year-old Japanese client today, I am meeting my girlfriend for LUNCH!! Yay!! An actual social obligation!! At Tequilaville!! One of my few remaining favorite restaurants. So the phone call I might be having with Sandra today regarding the play, at about 5PM, may or may not be super productive. But we shall see!

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Okay!

I saw this on Instagram yesterday. And I realized that if I could somehow maneuver myself into James Fox’s position at Keith’s dining room table there, I could probably get a whole lot of really great work done on my own memoir (which heavily features my adoration of Keith in my wee bonny girlhood)!!

Isn’t this a great photo??? Keith at work on his memoir, LIFE, from about 15 years ago.

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Here’s this from earlier this morning!

Kittens doing what they don’t do a whole lot of anymore!! (Sleep…)

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And here are these!!

More vintage Nick Cave. (The woman in France who posted these photos said that she will “never stop loving Nick Cave”. I’m guessing that I concur.)

And speaking of Nick Cave…

I think it was yesterday, but I am seriously losing track of the days here, but he posted a new Red Hand File, wherein he thanked everyone imaginable for such an incredible Wild God tour of North America. He said in part:

I think of them all – The Bad Seeds, so deft, so expressive, so anarchic, so bloody awesome, and all I feel at this restless hour is a profound gratitude….”

You can read it in full here.

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Yesterday, I took my favorite 94-year-old Japanese man out to Peony Bistro for lunch, but you know what???

He wanted sushi!!

I guess hell froze over or something because he always, always, always wants sashimi. With sake. He still wanted sake, but he insisted, yesterday, that he wanted sushi.

And we did not have our usual waitress. We had a young Malaysian woman who tries really, really hard, but who nonetheless did not bring us exactly what we’d ordered. And I didn’t want her to feel bad so I didn’t say anything, but she brought us one order of the sushi lunch special — to split.

So. We did not get a lot of food, but at least we went out to lunch and we had a great time.

Oh! And, oddly enough, our fortune cookies had no irony whatsoever. None. Zippo. So I guess maybe hell really did freeze over yesterday. So I guess be on the lookout for random devils and demons is big puffy fur coats…

After lunch, though, when we were back at my client’s house, I showed him the trailer on YouTube for that show I’m currently watching on Netflix, “Samurai Gourmet.” I posted the trailer here the other day — it’s entirely in Japanese. Although the show itself has English subtitles.

Anyway, my client of course speaks fluent Japanese and he was actually chuckling quite a lot while watching the trailer!! It was really fun. It was clear, he really wanted to watch the show but he doesn’t have Netflix.

(Here it is again, in case you speak Japanese and missed it the first time. What a cool show! From 2017.) (2 minutes):

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Meanwhile…

James Tabor has a new (re-issued) book out that I just started reading, it is really good!! How Abraham’s faith in God underlies Judaism, Christianity, and Islam.

And, yes, I’m still studying Chinese and French every day, too… so I am really just sort of off the charts around here.

But on that happy note, I better scoot, gang!

I need to sort of pull my head together here and then drive to town. It is actually quite lovely here today, so it should be a really nice drive.

Enjoy your Saturday, wherever you are in the world!!

Thanks for visiting.

I love you guys. See ya!

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I know I’ve posted this here before, but, wow, gang! Every time this song comes on my playlist, every single cell in my entire being RELAXES. At last.

Andrea Bocelli, “Besame Mucho”.

Enjoy, gang!

Welcome to my new world!

Jeepers, gang.

I knew this was coming — ALL projects would need 100% of my attention at the same time…

And here it is.

Not only that, but naturally, the agency increased my hours, too.

So I came up with a new schedule around here and it should work! Because, wow, gang– the new pages Peitor sent me yesterday for Episode 2 of our TV series project were really great! So, I’m excited!!

We have an outline for the episode already, but then he fills in dialogue and sends it to me. Then I put it all into the script and tweak it a little and send it back to him. Obviously the sooner I can get my end of it done, the sooner the entire episode will get written and sent off. Because we still have the whole pitch deck thing to finish and send off.

But then, also yesterday — another “wow”, gang! Sandra sent me the first 13 pages of the play, revised. It’s stuff we’d already written but she switched big sections of it around and wow, wow, wow!! It just flew off the page. It was just fantastic. For some reason, it just works so much better!!

So I have to reformat that, tweak it a bit, put it into the new script and send it back to Sandra. And then wait for the next chunk of pages from her.

Lather. Rinse. Repeat.

Even then, once we are in the rehearsal studio in NYC, the dramaturge and the music director will also need to make tweaks and changes. But the primary script has to be ready ASAP because they need to see it before we’re all in the rehearsal studio.

“ASAP” is now my new name.

And of course I also have my novel from 1998 that I am re-working the ending of… which requires an intense amount of focus.

So my new schedule: Even though I am usually awake by 4AM, I now need to be out of bed as close to 4AM as I can manage, and not lay around until 5AM before I really get up.

Then I have to clean litter boxes, feed cats, feed myself, pack a lunch if it’s Thursday — which is now a TWELVE HOUR shift day for me!!! Good God… Take my shower. Then sit down at my desk and work until the absolute minute I have to head out the door and drive to town.

Then, as soon as I come back from my shift, if it isn’t Thursday, I am back at my desk until 6PM. Then have dinner. Then go back to my desk until about 8:30PM. Then give myself time to watch something cool on my phone before attempting to fall asleep with a bunch of incredibly cute 6-week-old kittens frolicking all over me…

I am currently watching this on Netflix. Another Japanese show, 12 episodes, in English Subtitles. From 2017:

Samurai Gourmet. It is exceedingly enjoyable if a little insane:

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Okay!

More good news.

This product works!! For the last year and a half, I’ve had the ear ringing thing that everyone seems to have nowadays, which is allegedly caused by overexposure to 5G Wi-Fi.

I take 30 mgs of Vinpocetine every day specifically for the ear ringing. I also take 1200 mgs of Alpha Lipoic Acid — for various other reasons, but it also helps decrease the ear ringing. But sometimes, the ringing is still just incredibly maddening, gang. Just off the charts. So I bought this — it’s homeopathic:

As with all homeopathic remedies, you have to wait a bit for it to really start working.

I used the drops 2-3 times a day for 2 days, and then this morning, the start of day 3, I awoke (yes, at 4AM with kittens all over me), and I realized my ears were just barely ringing!! It was incredible, the difference! I will keep you posted as the days go on.

I bought it at my local drug store, but you can get it all over the place.

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Okay!!!

From Warren Ellis’s Instagram page yesterday, Nick Cave and Warren at the Sunset Marquis in West Hollywood, at the end of the Wild God tour:

Warren looks sort of A LOT more awake here than Nick does…

And this is unrelated, really, but back when Peitor Angell still lived in LA, he lived basically next door to the Sunset Marquis. Here is a photo I took of him at Christmas 2018, in the hotel:

Peitor Angell, Christmas 2018, Sunset Marquis

On that particular trip, he and I had such a fantastic time. That was when we officially created Abstract Absurdity Productions (now based in Nice, France)!!

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Here’s this, just because I love it!!! Vintage Nick Cave, 1992:

And from Nick Cave Official yesterday — All the Grinderman stuff is being released on vinyl on July 18th! You can pre-order them here.

And read all about it HERE.

The first Grinderman album was my favorite!!!

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And I think that’s it because I need to read over some pages from Peitor before I head out the door (for TWELVE HOURS!!!).

Enjoy your Thursday wherever you are in the world!

Thanks for visiting!

I love you guys. See ya!

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Okay! I leave you with this!!

Just one of many great songs off the first Grinderman record!

“Go Tell the Women”. Grinderman. 2007. Enjoy, gang.

"Go Tell The Women"

We done our thing
We have evolved
We’re up on our hind legs
The problem solved
We are artists
We are mathematicians
Some of us hold extremely high positions

But we are tired
We’re hardly breathing
And we’re free
Go tell the women that we’re leaving

We’re sick and tired
Of all this self-serving grieving
All we wanted was a little consensual rape in the afternoon
And maybe a bit more in the evening
We are scientists
We do genetics
We leave religion
To the psychos and fanatics

But we are tired
We got nothing to believe in
We are lost
Go tell the women that we’re leaving

We done our thing
We’re hip to the sound
Of six billion people
Going down
We are magicians
We are deceiving
We are free and we’re lost
Go tell the women that we’re leaving

Hey hey
Hey hey
Come on back now to the fray
Hey hey
Hey hey
Come on back now to the fray
Hey hey
Hey hey

c -2007 Nicholas Edward Cave / Warren Ellis / Martin Casey / Jim Sclavunos

Everything’s Fantastic!!

When was the last time you heard me say that, gang??? (I will give you a few minutes to let you go over your notes and find out…)

Okay! Time’s up!

The correct answer is: You have NEVER heard me say that!!!!

I cannot remember a moment in all of my many, many moments here on Earth wherein everything has been fantastic — at the same time.

But everything is actually fantastic today. And, no, I didn’t do any housecleaning yesterday. And, no, I did not go to the shooting range, either. I stayed at my desk and worked. And also did a little yoga — although not at my desk.

And let me just add that trying to do yoga while closed up in a room with 4 frisky six-week-old kittens and a curious Mommy-cat, is not entirely relaxing. For some reason, they seem inordinately fond of yoga mats and they constantly get underfoot…

Not us…but a reasonable facsimile

Okay.

While I can’t publicly go into everything that’s fantastic right now, I can say this: I heard back from the agent in Helsinki, who reps the Finnish actor that we are keenly desiring will take the role of the Finnish crime boss in our TV series– and she said that he read the script and is “interested in the project”!!!!

That alone sent me zooming to the moon yesterday. I cannot tell you how badly Peitor and I both want that guy to be in that role!! It is such a fucking out there character, gang!!

Lest you forget — his “theme music” in the final moments of the pilot episode (in slow motion, no less) (yes, please play it and please play it LOUD):

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In other incredibly fantastic news, although the “news” was just a very short sentence — it still gave my heart a whole lot of hope, gang.

If you subscribe to my substack page, you may recall that last year, I unearthed a novel I had written back in the late 90s and after reading it over, I came to the conclusion that I was crazy to let the opinions of others affect how I felt about that novel back then. Even though it had won 3 writing awards. Publishers did not want to be associated with it. I stored the novel away and thought I would never look at it again.

When I did look at it again (25 years later), I was astounded to discover that it was almost finished. I had remembered it as being maybe halfway done. But it was practically done and I had buried it away. A novel that meant so much to me. (Back then, self-publishing was very different than it is now — it was really expensive, for one thing. And very hard to promote. It just wasn’t a serious option.)

Anyway, I intend to publish it, after I nail down the ending. But my preference of course would be that a traditional publisher publishes it, instead.

It is an intense novel and it offended a lot of editors who read it 25 years ago. (It is not erotica although it has a lot of sexually harsh and graphic scenes in it.) If Henry Miller or Bill Burroughs had written it, and if Barney Rosset had still been publishing back then instead of being retired, the novel might have had a chance at a Pulitzer Prize….

The late, great Barney Rosset, who did technically publish me once — his company picked up the mass market paperback rights to Neptune & Surf and published it, although by that point, he had retired.

Okay, anyway.

Long story short, I approached a small press yesterday, asking if they would read it and maybe have an interest in publishing it. And they at least wrote back that they “looked forward to going over the materials” I’d sent.

What can I say?? To the moon and back, gang.

I know it’s not a lot, it doesn’t mean that the novel will appeal to them, either, but just the thought of that novel maybe seeing the light of day and not as something else I yet again have to self-publish… wow.

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Okay, so yes!! I have a lot on my plate. Oh, and Sandra called me at 5:30AM this morning! And you know what? I had just that moment woken up! I’d overslept!! Most people know I’m usually up and out of bed by 5AM, so they don’t hesitate to call me before dawn, but Sandra felt terrible that she’d called me so early and I was a wee bit incoherent….

Anyway! Yes, my plate is really full. But I don’t care! It’s all a big bunch of happy projects for me.

And tonight!! THIS:

Dinner with Kara at the Granville Inn!! And our friend Wendy might also be coming!!! I text Wendy pretty frequently but I haven’t actually seen her since last Fall. So I am super excited!!

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And I think that’s it for now. I gotta read over some pages Peitor sent and then get to a client.

Have a terrific Tuesday wherever you are in the world!

Thanks for visiting.

I love you guys. See ya!

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In an unlikely turn of events — I have not only given the kittens first names, but this morning, I suddenly gave them the usual last name that I give most of my cats: “McGee”. Currently, I have McFees and McGees in the house. And these new kittens have joined the ranks of the McGees.

And when Bobbie Jo jumped up on my bed this morning, while I was sitting there having coffee — I realized that her full name is now Bobbie Jo McGee!!

Wow! So I immediately regaled her with THIS song in its entirety and she seemed to really like my singing, gang! Well, at least she stopped cold and stared at me very intently.

Okay. Enjoy this moment, gang: Janis Joplin, singing Kris Kristofferson’s timeless classic, “Me and Bobby McGee”. See ya.

Getting Our Ducks in a Row!

I cannot decide what to do today, gang.

I really want to pop in at the shooting range but it is a cold and dismal day. Part of what I love about going to the shooting range is that drive over there — all back roads. All hills and trees and fields and cows. Hawks and the occasional eagle circling in the big blue endless sky.

I love that. Especially on my day off.

It’s just so gloomy today. Plus, I have a bunch of housecleaning that needs doing. So, part of me wants to just stay home and clean.

Still another part of me wants to forget about cleaning and just sit at my desk and write!!

Since Peitor is involved in scoring a film in Canada right now, I won’t be hearing from him today.

And — so far — Sandra doesn’t need me today, either. So I could just sit here and write….

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Here’s something you don’t often see around here these days — the kittens sleeping!!

And the 3 that have normal legs discovered — last night — how to get up on my bed and frolic around! It was so cute!!

But it was 1:28AM….

Oh, and lest me forget that I still have that family of amazingly adorable young cats that were abandoned left here by that young married couple a year ago…

One of them has learned a new skill! In the last 24 hours, THIS happened 3 times in the upstairs bathroom!!

(Yes, 3 complete jumbo rolls of TP in 24 hours because for some inexplicable reason I kept thinking he/she would stop doing it!)

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And we won’t even discuss THIS type of thing on 4 of my window screens….

Anyway.

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I had the coolest dream last night! It was so detailed and just so cool, so empowering. I can’t even begin to describe it. But the one thing I can easily describe:

Right before I awoke, I was singing the song below in the dream — every word of it. I hadn’t thought about this song in probably 58 years!! And I still knew all the words!

When I was a little girl in Cleveland, I used to sing this song in my bed at night. Really loudly, until my brother would shout “Shut up!” from his room across the hall…

Anyway. I took this song really, really seriously when I was a little girl. (I can’t even imagine what my parents were thinking, downstairs in the living room, trying to watch TV….)

But, I don’t know, gang — it seems like some sort of good sign that it came back to me all these decades later, in “a dream”:

"The Impossible Dream"

To dream the impossible dream
To fight the unbeatable foe
To bear with unbearable sorrow
To run where the brave dare not go

To right the unrightable wrong
To love pure and chaste from afar
To try when your arms are too weary
To reach the unreachable star

This is my quest to follow that star
No matter how hopeless, no matter how far
To fight for the right without question or pause
To be willing to march into hell for a heavenly cause

And I know if I'll only be true to this glorious quest
That my heart will lie peaceful and calm
When I'm laid to my rest

And the world will be better for this
That one man, scorned and covered with scars
Still strove with his last ounce of courage

To reach the unreachable star

c - 1965 - Mitch Leigh / Joseph Darion

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My life is at least interesting these days, if nothing else…

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Okay!

No Nick Cave & the Bad Seeds today. But here’s this again!! Just ’cause I love it:

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And other than that, I guess I will close this and just sit and try to figure out what I’m gonna do today.

I want to make good use of this wide-open day today, gang, because I have 6 shifts ahead of me this week (and every week after that, until I go to NYC). But I also have —

Dinner tomorrow night with Kara at the glorious Granville Inn!!

A late lunch on Saturday with my Q-following girlfriend at Tequilaville!!

So this week won’t be all about stress and work. But I still want to make today count for something.

Meanwhile, while I try to figure that out, enjoy your Monday, wherever you are in the world!!

Thanks for visiting.

I love you guys. See ya!